How to deal with OCD while pregnant

[OCDAAA]

Hi..sorry for my bad english. I am 5 weeks pregnant and some terrible thoughts don't let me enjoy this period..all my life i was afraid of getting pregnant by sitting on the toilet seat. I had terrible fear and was hard to cope with it...Now I have beloved husband, i would never cheat on him, he is the one and only in my life... he is the most important to me, but thoughts that i got pregnant not by him, but by sitting on the toilet seat with some sperm on it..oh..it kills me!, i cannot live a normal life. Last month we were on holiday and i can't stop thinking that  toilets in hotel room were not clean...that some person ejacuated there before we moved into the room and so on...i tried to make myself believe that all rooms are being clened before new guests, that sperm cannot live long and would dry up..and i would have seen it if it were there..all in all- there were nobody, rooms were clean, why some person should do that????.but still..i am sure that i touched toilet seat with my vagina several times, because i doing my nails just after the shower, naked, sitting on it..and i remember myself wondering "i sit like this...maybe it is not clen..." and now i simply cannot stop thinking that there was something...
Me and my husband did not plan a baby, but now it is a miracle to us..we were so happy at the moment we realized it, but after several days those thoughts came into my mind. .and now i simply can't live normally, i can't be happy because thinking that i got pregnant while sitting on toilet seat in the hotel kills me....every day i spend hours looking for the logical answers WHY IT CAN'T HAPPEN, but these thoughts still wins.

I know it is so stupid.....but i hope there is someone who can ease my pain...

[JGF25]

Hi there.  Well I can't tell you it is stupid because anybody with OCD has been down the nightmare superhighway of irrational thinking.  If we could stop, we would.  I will tell you that no you would not have gotten pregnant that way...for what it is worth.  So the key for you is this since you are pregnant.  You need to see a psychologist, one that teaches cognitive behavioral therapy, and you need to start seeing that person now.  Then you need to practice the techniques.  Can you do this?  
For now try this breathing technique when you feel out of control.  Take a deep breath in through your nose, hold it for five second and count this out in your head or you can say "in" and "out", then let it all out through your mouth.  Do this in a laying down position with your hands on your stomach at first so you can feel the rise and fall of it.  After you have mastered this technique (it will slow your heart rate down) then you can do it in any situation at any place and nobody will even know you are doing it.  Also try some meditation videos on YouTube.  Lastly, look at the book Self-Coaching by Joseph Luciani.  There are good methods in there to help with the rumination.  Picturing a stop sign, yelling at yourself in your head.  Let me know how you are doing.  

[OCDAAA]

Thank you..thank you a lot...i am really looking for a good psichologist and hope to start terapy next week. Logical part of my mind always says that is inpossible to get pregnant this way..Moreover - i only imagine that there were somebody, but the other part believes that there were something, i really touched it and it really happen...the way for me calm down is to hear more and more people saying that this is impossible.
My husband is the only person i make love,,,,

[JGF25]

What makes you feel better is called reassurance.  All people with OCD seek it out but the problem is that we only feel better for a short while and then we are back at the irrational thinking again.  It's a viscous cycle.  

[OCDAAA]

yes...that is true...i find enough answers that IT IS IMPOSSIBLE, but there suddenly someone comes with one "well, there is a tiny possibility"...and it starts again...i feel so tired..every day..exhausted..i am pregnant and all the time living in such a terrible stress...i am seeing a psichologist this friday.

[JGF25]

Great news.  Let me know how it goes.  You are going to be just fine :)  

[OCDAAA]

i visited psichologist today...well, it wasn't easy...she did not try to find out where this came from, what is behind everything. She even did not try to prove that it is impossible (what i really wanted..i want that from everybody)..she said that i need to stop looking for answers and proofs, and need to keep saying to myself that it is just a though..and it is normal to have different thoughts and it is just what i created...she said i need to spend 5 min every day thinking about this..only about this, let into my mind what is uncomfortable..only for those 5 min. I don't know. ...

[Sweetheartgirl]

Hi, I've been in a therapy for a few months , and what I've learnt is that the pathologist will not give you reassurance because it just feeds your ocd cycle, u have to accept the uncertainty which is really hard  

[saintmarie]

OCD is very tricky no you did not get impregnated from a toilet seat believe me!! I know the wheels just keep turning in the head but what about this what if it went like this etc... I can relate my friend!

[OCDAAA]

Thank you for your support... i am trying to focus on these thoughs only for several minutes..well...I understad that there iš no logic, that i created everything, sometimes i really calm me down for a while, but then suddenly it comes to my mind: i really touched it with my v*** really hard several Times. That is for sure...and if did, maybe theb it is possible...and then i forget all the logic..It is so hard.