do i have ocd?

[soul_planet]

hi. i was diagnosed by psychiatrist to have depression and depersonalisation. I dont really feel depressed (sad), but just that i begin to feel numb to my surrounding and my major concern is with my lack of concentration and detachment to reality. i have stopped meeting my psychiatrist due to financial restraint and i dont want to rely on medications anymore

putting this aside, currently i'm also having problem with repeating words, phrases in my head. For example when i learn new english vocabulary, i will keep on repeating the word for hours/days..even when i read something and that thing is stuck in my head..i cant stop myself from not repeating it..and if i stop, i feel suffocated and my head feels heavy

i have experienced this since high school usually when i study for purpose of memorization..but now it feels much more worse..so is this one form of ocd?

[JGF25]

And you stayed on the medications at least 4 weeks to make sure they didn't work for you?  What about Wellbutrin?  I take Wellbutrin for OCD and it works well for me.  Might be worth a try.  Also, learning how to deal with the thoughts is very important.  Of course you need to find a psychologist that teaches CBT and that you like and feel you are getting something from.  

[soul_planet]

yes already did that..i will take your consideration thank you so much for advice

[soul_planet]

He didnt refer me to anyone..but i have already gone to see psychologist once. sorry to say but i was disappointed..the psychologist didnt really spend time to give some advice..he just kept on saying "you have to tone down your life" etc..and i prefer medications as i think counselling would not be of any help. i think talking to friends is much better cause they also give the same advice as the psychologist

[soul_planet]

thank you for the reply. i have stopped taking medications..i have tried effexor, lexapro, ritalin, lamotrigine, etc but none worked

[JGF25]

did the psychiatrist ever refer you to a psychologist for CBT?

[JGF25]

Hi there.  We cannot diagnose you on the forum.  It looks like you have seen a professional and got a diagnosis.  I understand that it is costly and this puts a financial burden on people.  You mentioned medication...are you currently taking medication?