Getting Tired of weird Symptoms

[oldskool80]

Here it goes:-

I made a silly mistake of having an unprotected sex with CSW back on June 08. That was the only
incident outside my marriage. Since then, i'm very anxious, scared, guilt, panic and keep thinking of contracting HIV from that incident.
Then on Oct 08, I quit smoking 'cold turkey' after being a hard smoker (1-2 packs) per day for 11 yrs.

Get tested for HIV 1/2 ab at 6 wks, 19 wks, 25 wks, 35 wks & 37 wks..negative
STD test at 35 & 37 wks ..normal
Full blood screen at 6 wks, 19 wks, 25 wks & 37 wks...normal
Urinalysis at 6 wks, 19 wks, 25 wks & 37 wks...normal..

The problem is i can't take out my anxiety / HIV phobia / STD phobia out of my head tho my tests were conclusive..
told many times by experts in other forum...I'm afraid of passing my sickness to my beloved wife for sure...
I really regret and learn from my mistake...i promised to be faithful...
But, i'm still clueless...
I suffer from many weird symptoms until now, 11 mnths after the incident:-
lightheadedness
lack of concentration
muscle aches/pains
drowsiness
tingling in hand & feet
muscle twitches all over body..
numbness
nausea
sore throat
stiffed shoulder & neck
tremor in hand & feet..
penis throbbing...(discomfort sensation around my genital, urethra)
easily fatigue...

I'm lost...still scared with my current condition...
dunno what's going on with me...really..
Really sick?? severe anxiety disorder?? severe nicotine withdrawal?? OCD??

[StarPatience]

Ive heard of this. It could be Cypridophobia. fear of vanereal diseases

[oldskool80]

thanks for your comment & advise..

i've told her everything...but it's hard for me to get this guilt out of my head...
by the same time, i'm suffering from those neverending symptoms which made me really really sick.
i'm still struggling by now..almost 1 yr after the incident..
i'll try to talk to my Dr regarding this....

thanks again buddy...
pray for me...

[epic70]

it seems like you have given yourself OCD. your physical symptoms sound more like tourettes syndrome though. you could take medication for it. have you told your wife about the affair? that could mean the difference between a guilty conscience and a disorder. i would seek professional help from someone who specializes in anxiety disorders. you know you dont have HIV or an STD. you have been tested numerous times, you just feel dirty or like your diseased cause you cheated.....hope you feel better soon.