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obsessed with obsessions (and depression)
i will start the story from the beginning. i had family problems for years. 3 years ago when i was 18 i was diagnosed with depression panic attacks and agoraphobia.i was bad, after my first panic attack i was obsessed with my heart and i was thinking all the time that something wrong with it.despite that all the doctors say that i have got nothing, i was still thinking of it all day.
my psychiatrist gave me citalopram, after taking citalopram i started felling better, and after couple months i was 99.9% cured. depression had gone, i had high self esteem again feel confident for my self i could do anything.no more panic attacks, i realized that nothing is wrong with my heart and no more agoraphobia.i start doing things again in my life, i was not sitting all day in my room and thinking about it.all those bad thoughts had been disappeared.all those feelings while i was taking citalopram. so after 2 years of citalopram (40mg/day for one year and 20mg/day for another), and feeling ok with my life i disappeared to stop taking it, i asked my psychiatrist and she said ok. soo september 2012 i stopped.so till december 2012, i was felling ok and then it stared i was feeling i bit depressed in the beginning, did not want to do thing, i was feeling tired most of the time.and as the time gone by i stared feeling worse and worse.Today im feeling really bad, like even going to the bathroom sounds really difficult.
i have alot of depression, OCD and anxiety disorder (at least no panic attacks yet).im all day lost in my depressive thoughts, i feel anxious, i dont want to do anything, most of the time im sitting in my room and thinking about OCD, i feel incapable of doing anything, i have low esteem, lack of mental clarity, i find it really dificult to concentrate, in the university im doing ****, bad grades i cant study, i feel that something wrong with me,quite often i read things on the internet about mental disorders and i think that i have them.i have alot of phobias,i dont want to do anything, i've lost the motivation, i am thinking all the time that i have ocd and i can't do anything and it makes me anxious.
i dont go out with my friends any more, i think that i will do something wrong or i will hurt them without wanting it.
i'm thinking all the time that i have all those mental disorders and i will be never cured. im thinking about my obsessions all the time, i dont know what to do.last year i was doing things, i was going to the gym, i had girlfriend i had good grades in the uni, going out with my friend having good time, and now i can't do anything.
i didnt do any of my assignments and i failed i all modules,im going in the lectures and i cant concentrate even for one minute.
i feel lost in my obsessive thoughts. i started taking 300mg/day of 5-HTP but i still feel the same.
Any suggestions ??
Thanks.
Thank you.
my psychiatrist gave me citalopram, after taking citalopram i started felling better, and after couple months i was 99.9% cured. depression had gone, i had high self esteem again feel confident for my self i could do anything.no more panic attacks, i realized that nothing is wrong with my heart and no more agoraphobia.i start doing things again in my life, i was not sitting all day in my room and thinking about it.all those bad thoughts had been disappeared.all those feelings while i was taking citalopram. so after 2 years of citalopram (40mg/day for one year and 20mg/day for another), and feeling ok with my life i disappeared to stop taking it, i asked my psychiatrist and she said ok. soo september 2012 i stopped.so till december 2012, i was felling ok and then it stared i was feeling i bit depressed in the beginning, did not want to do thing, i was feeling tired most of the time.and as the time gone by i stared feeling worse and worse.Today im feeling really bad, like even going to the bathroom sounds really difficult.
i have alot of depression, OCD and anxiety disorder (at least no panic attacks yet).im all day lost in my depressive thoughts, i feel anxious, i dont want to do anything, most of the time im sitting in my room and thinking about OCD, i feel incapable of doing anything, i have low esteem, lack of mental clarity, i find it really dificult to concentrate, in the university im doing ****, bad grades i cant study, i feel that something wrong with me,quite often i read things on the internet about mental disorders and i think that i have them.i have alot of phobias,i dont want to do anything, i've lost the motivation, i am thinking all the time that i have ocd and i can't do anything and it makes me anxious.
i dont go out with my friends any more, i think that i will do something wrong or i will hurt them without wanting it.
i'm thinking all the time that i have all those mental disorders and i will be never cured. im thinking about my obsessions all the time, i dont know what to do.last year i was doing things, i was going to the gym, i had girlfriend i had good grades in the uni, going out with my friend having good time, and now i can't do anything.
i didnt do any of my assignments and i failed i all modules,im going in the lectures and i cant concentrate even for one minute.
i feel lost in my obsessive thoughts. i started taking 300mg/day of 5-HTP but i still feel the same.
Any suggestions ??
Thanks.
Thank you.
Don't worry about heartbeat problems, there are remedies for that too down the road if need be. The chances are that will not be the case, and like you said you didn't have heart problems before when taking it.
Honestly I have been so depressed living with OCD lately that I have been praying for a heart attack or cancer. Don't let it get that bad when you wish you weren't around anymore. You need your brain working healthy to live with self-respect and remember your dignity, and I think that is more important than any other physical ailment that happens.
If you know that medication works for you then maybe you should get back on it and not second guess it. Ask your psychiatrist what he/she thinks and recommends.
Honestly I have been so depressed living with OCD lately that I have been praying for a heart attack or cancer. Don't let it get that bad when you wish you weren't around anymore. You need your brain working healthy to live with self-respect and remember your dignity, and I think that is more important than any other physical ailment that happens.
If you know that medication works for you then maybe you should get back on it and not second guess it. Ask your psychiatrist what he/she thinks and recommends.
i dont know, i got confused man,
but i have to admit that it didnt cause any heart problems to me.
the only down side is that the medical report says that
if somebody is taking it for many years it could cause
some heart beat problems.
but i have to admit that it didnt cause any heart problems to me.
the only down side is that the medical report says that
if somebody is taking it for many years it could cause
some heart beat problems.
There are side effects with all medications not just ones for OCD. If it has happened to one person during the trial, then they have to report it. I think one of the medications I take says it can cause seizures. I take the medication because it works and I NEED something to work otherwise I would be a basket case. You need to sit down and write down the pros and cons of taking medication. Can you live your life right now without it? Do you think you can get past this without it? If not, then what are you going to do if you don't take the medication that you know works for you. AND the last time you took it it didn't cause heart problems...right?
well i dont know if i want to start again citalopram, the thing is that i read alot of articles online,which they are saying that new studies have shown that citalopram can cause heart problems and may affect the heartbeat negative!!
soo i have my doubts about this drug!
soo i have my doubts about this drug!
Honestly, I personally think you need to go back on the citalopram (Celexa). A lot of people try the 5-HTP because it is natural but you need to get back on the medication that you know works for you. The anti-depressants just seem to work better for people with OCD. Make the doctor's appointment. I don't know if you can salvage your studies at this point right now but you owe it to yourself to try the medication again. Like I said, I have been where you are. I thought I didn't need it anymore either and that did work for a while but when it came back it came back with a vengeance and now I will take it for the rest of my life if need be. I'm not saying that you will have to stay on them forever but studies are stressful and I find, at least for me, that stress really makes my OCD worse. So perhaps you just need it for now and down the road you can try again to go off of it and see how you do. What you will always be able to fall back on is the fact that meds work for you and that you can always get better when you take them should you find that things go south again.
well yeah thats the case, and the thing is that im not in exactly in the same position.i dont have panic attacks, but i have more obsessions and weird thoughts all the time.i cant even study for my uni stuff cuz im thinking it all the time.
5-htp is a naturally occurring amino acid and chemical precursor as well as a metabolic intermediate in the biosynthesis of the neurotransmitters serotonin and melatonin from tryptophan.
i dont know what to do. what do u think??
5-htp is a naturally occurring amino acid and chemical precursor as well as a metabolic intermediate in the biosynthesis of the neurotransmitters serotonin and melatonin from tryptophan.
i dont know what to do. what do u think??
So let me get this right, you were taking citalopram and feeling great and then you stopped taking it and now you have gone back to the way you were before? So you stopped in September and never started it again?
If this is the case, then I welcome you to the club of OCD sufferers who have decided that we feel great and that the meds are not needed anymore when the whole reason we feel great IS BECAUSE of the meds. Honestly, I think we all do it at least once. My suggestion is to go back on the meds. 5-HTP is an over-the-counter medication, correct?
If this is the case, then I welcome you to the club of OCD sufferers who have decided that we feel great and that the meds are not needed anymore when the whole reason we feel great IS BECAUSE of the meds. Honestly, I think we all do it at least once. My suggestion is to go back on the meds. 5-HTP is an over-the-counter medication, correct?
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