Victoria

[Anna-maria74]

Victoria left us at 12.05 yesterday after so much suffering, such a will to live - boy did she want to live. You know I kept coming in here hoping someone else would have written this - someone else will do it, I dont have to face it. Thats not what Victoria would have done for me though is it? Friday she posted a message asking my dear friends to think of me and what I didnt realise at that time was that she didnt have long left. Still she was putting me first - hiding the truth of her illness to protect me. How many people do you know like this? I will rephrase, how many 16 year olds do you know who are like this? She never asked anything of anyone - only knew how to give. I told her that thinking of her was the only thing that got me through every hour without my baby. So she didnt tell me there were not many hours left so I would stay strong.

I can not find the words to do this beautiful child justice I am simply not equal to the task. So why have I stopped snivelling behind the sofa to leave this message now. Well because her partner - Vadim - who sat there until the end tells me that she felt so isolated and lonely and afraid and felt that no-one cared. She felt that no-one cared and he still feels it. People have been - he says - so matter of fact about her illness in life and there has been little impact now that she has gone. I let her down. It doesnt matter what I did or didnt do or say I let her down simply because of the way she felt. That is my cross to bare. vadim thinks no-one cares he is wrong. The irony of the situation is that she was so strong she never truely reached out as she didnt want to worry anyone. He thinks no-one will respond to this - he is going to be wrong about that too.

My words dont speak as loudly as seeing this spirit for yourselves so I am posting some links so that you can see what the world has lost.

I love you Victoria

Anna X

[Brownie3321]

I too was very shocked by this. Victoria was a beautiful, strong, young woman who is now with her mother. She was so special and her kindness showed through in all of her posts.
God speed Victoria. With love, Deandra

[butterflytc]

I do not have any elegant words left in me, my heart breaks for you Vadim. I am so sorry Victoria suffered, but am grateful she had you in her life. I think God makes sure, that all of us have that one person..that we can lean on when time gets hard. I am so glad she had you Vadim.

Friends are angels, who lift us to our feet,
when our wings have trouble remembering how to fly.
author unknown

God Bless you and give you the strength, to find peace, as Victoria now has in heaven.
Butterflytc

[madgeOwens]

This must be why they say Only the Good Die Young..................this is heart breaking..............God Bless Her and Keep Her in the Palm of Your Loving Hands. Amen

[learninboutlife]

I held off on posting, I didn't get the chance to know Victoria but have heard soooo many wonderful things about her. She was truly a sweet and cherished soul. Just so young, makes me so sad. May she and her mom find peace -- and I guess this is my wish too:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HU1OaCglgw0

"You're in the arms of the angels ... may you find some comfort here"

Wishing peace and comfort to everyone here,
Fran

[msjazz]

I am so sorry to hear about Victoria. I only knew about her after she lost her mom. Vadim , I know she loved you dearly and you took such good care of her. May God bless you and give you strength in the days to come.     Donna

[Carol139]

New here, but very sorry to hear this sad story!  Watched the video.  Beautiful - speachless.  Will pray.

Carol