I too was in denial about PTSD and the effects on my life. Below is from the Website ADAA about PTSD...
The disorder is characterized by three main types of symptoms:
•Re-experiencing the trauma through intrusive distressing recollections of the event, flashbacks, and nightmares.
•Emotional numbness and avoidance of places, people, and activities that are reminders of the trauma.
•Increased arousal such as difficulty sleeping and concentrating, feeling jumpy, and being easily irritated and angered.
Counseling and medication may help, good luck to you
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drifter is correct it does sound like PTSD some counseling will help you.
i believe that you are suffering from PTSD, i recognize the symptoms: nightmares,rage and for me flashbacks apathy let me tell you that you are not alone i abused alcohol& drugs for many years until i embraced recovery PTSD doesn't go away please seek treatment like counseling, group therapy and possibly meds