i have full post traumatic stress syndrome

[shellsa]

i am michelle whos a had a long history of abuse in my life basiclly i was sexually  abused by my dad as a kid and now that wrecks all my relationships ive also compulsive obsessive disorders and mood disorders this stress is killing me i fel lke a complete ghost i go to councillours every week

[phina]

hi there. like you, i have PTSD due to sexual abuse. you're not alone. i am also very sensitive and easily depressed over little things. my relationship is also affected by this as well (like how you said you get mixed between new things and old things) & it is very awkard for me to try and even be intimate w/ my boyfriend of 11 months. therapy helps ALOT, trust me, especially with the right combination of meds.. but give yourself time to get to know your therapist so you can really open up. i know how sensitive it is to talk about, thats why you should make sure that you are comfortable with your therapist & if you aren't after a few sessions, don't be scared to ask for another therapist & keep trying them out until you find one that you like & are comfortable with. anyways hope this helps! :) keep your head up girl

[shellsa]

thanks for that i am a very sensitive person which makes it even harder than normal to deal with any thing people says upsets me and i get depressed

[margypops]

After counselling maybe you will feel a lot better ,I am not certain if it does 'evaporate' I think they teach you to handle it , I am sure you will feel stronger and more able to cope, make your life full of other things , accept it happened to you, dont dwell on it fill up with new things ,dont let your thoughts help you to dwell on your past.

[shellsa]

thank you i also have a thing that i dont trust many people cause i get really easily hey does post trauma stress disorder evaporite after councilling or can it pop back cause all my relationships get effected intimate ones the old brain gets mixed with the nerw brain

[margypops]

I think you are doing pretty well considering all that has happened ,its great you are finding the counseling easier I have heard at first its traumatic ,then a kind of light bulb comes on in your head ,you find it is easier to talk about what happend .I think you are opening up by coming here to talk to others.Always know you are not alone, always reach out to others when you need to .What else do you have in your life , family , animals projects , work , hobbies ?

[shellsa]

michelle here the drs put me on med for life to deal with all these disorders including autism spectrum disorder and past traumatic stress disorder i try my best im no angel ive even got obsessive compulsive disorders. thank you for u suppoer ithelps my first councilling session was awkward but now i got used to her im a extremly sensitive person every thing people say hurts even more.i just dont like who ive become living with these for the rest of life

[margypops]

Has the counseling helped you ? How are you coping in your life ,it is a long road to get peace isnt it ,in fact thats what we do ..the human spirit is very resillient  we battle on, acceptance of what happened to you may help, it was then , now, it is in your hands to show that the abuser did not wreck your life you are living you life well in spite of him..For changing mood there are supplements out there that can help you ,you can google this or go to our Complementary Med Forum for further information , tell us more if it would help you, wishing you some peace.