just an update

[momof8215]

Hi Ladies, for those of you who know me already, know that I've been out of the loop for a while now. I have given up the idea of another baby because I can't handle the disappointments month after month. Anyway, I haven't had a period since April 2nd. I take an hpt at least once a month just to make sure but it's always negative. My dr. has assured me that I am not in menopause and that I can still conceive. There isn't anything medically wrong with me. Anyway, the update is this...I track my period (even though it never comes) because in the past I would skip months and then on target the next month it comes when it should based on my 28 days. "IF" I would have had a period this month it would have been on the 10th. That's by tracking since April. I missed the April 28th, May 24th, June 19th, July 15th, and now August 10th. The past two days I have period like cramps and my lower back hurts almost like a kidney infection but with no pain when I go to the bathroom. My breast are fuller but they don't hurt and I am completely exhausted. Now tell me...Do any of you think I could be pregnant this time? My next scheduled period would be September 5th. If I actually ovulated this month it would have been between the 21st and 23rd. Should I waste my time with a test if I don't get my period again or just not bother. I go for my annual pap next week. I was supposed to go this Friday but had to reschedule because Dave's daughter is leaving for college that day and we have to move her. Any advice would help. Thoughts, feelings, TRUTH...anything at all. I know no one can diagnose me and only a test will tell but I just need to hear anything at all that might help me feel better. Thanks in advance!!!

Dawn

[momof8215]

That's why I love you so much Amanda, you always try to keep me upbeat and "positive"...LOL!!! I will let you know either way, I promise. Kiss Ryder for me, maybe he'll bring me luck xoxoxoxo

[adgal]

I know you think it's negative, but I am still keeping everything crossed for you!!!!!  Update when you can ok?  I'll be checking in first thing in the morning to see what's what!  SSBD!!!

XOXOXO

[momof8215]

I can't take meds because I had a blood clot in my leg in 1998. Anything that is a hormone is out for me. I'm still hopeful but it's not looking good. I can't track ovulation without a period. The only way I'll know if I ovulate is if I end up with a period. I could try to track it using my regular cycle of 28 days and try the opk's on the 11th-13th days, that's when I always got my smiley faces. I still keep track with my 28 days in case I am going to get a period, I don't like it to show up if I'm not prepared. I don't get any symptoms so it could come out of nowhere. I decided not to test today, I will use fmu in the morning. I'm sure it's negative. My "scheduled" period would be due Sept. 5th so if this is negative and I still don't get it I will test then. I've missed 5 so far.

[Higgins1107]

wow u sound like me... I was like that too.. My period would only come when it wanted to.. I couldnt get preg for nothin but things turned out good for me in the long run this is how... I went to my dr and he put me on med to have my period and then after that he put me on metformin. I take 2000mg a day and I have my period every 32day.. I have 5 kids now.. I ended up getting preg last aug 2009. ended in a miscarriage at 8wks. We were not trying but after losting a baby I wanted to try to get preg and i did but ended up having another miscarriage last month this time I was 18wks.. Hardest day of my life.. If u want a baby dont give up.. U will b sorry down the road... I have 4 kids from my first marriage and I have one with my husband... We want one more together.. we r going to try about in a couple of months.. My age is catching up with me but im going to try again.. good luck to u !!!

[momof8215]

Thanks Amanda and Julia. Like I said, I am not trying anymore but to miss 5 months is killing me. There is no known reason for it. My appointment for my annual isn't until Sept. 14th now but I did let the receptionist know that I haven't had a period since April 2nd, so hopefully they will call me with a cancellation before then. I go back to work on Sept. 7th. (I work in the school). Anyway, I think I may take a test today and again on Sept 5th, when the next "scheduled" period would be due. If it's positive (which I highly doubt) then they will see me sooner I would think. I love you guys and I really appreciate the friendship and support that you always give me when I come on here to vent. I just hope if it is the beginning of menopause that they come clean with me so I don't wonder every month. Then I'll just "know" that that's what it is and go on with my life. Have a great day ladies!!!

[Juliaschill]

Oh I know how sad you feel!! I am so sorry I really hope this is your month, !!!!!! best wihses to you!!!!

[adgal]

Oh my sweet Dawn.  It has been an awful road for you hasn't it. You know I want this for you so badly.  

It's possible as you already know.  You and I both know that symptoms may or may not indicate. It sounds hopeful to me, but the only way to know for sure...you know you have to take a test.  I think you should. I know it breaks your heart everytime you see that negative, but living with the unknown is far worse, don't you think.  I'll tell you what..set a time you are going to take that test, and pm me with that time.  I will sit on line with you "holding your hand" until you have that result.  But I think you have to take that test my friend.  (((((hugs))))

Also...I know we haven't chatted in awhile, but if memory serves me correctly, you don't usually skip 3 or 4 months in a row, do you?  Isn't it usally one or two, then you have a period?