Hi everyone,
I was wondering if anyone suffers from depression.
an was not been depressed before i got pregnant, I still don't know if I am right now for sure but I think I am.
I got married a few months ago, before that and after, my husband and i were having problems. It was mostly because of his family, and still is. They aren't regular problems, there has been a lot of harassment and abuse towards himself and myself from them. So it's really difficult to deal with.
I feel like everything is a million times worse now that I am pregnant. I know my emotions are higher than ever, but I don't know if how I'm feeling is normal.
I feel now more than ever that I am completely alone. My husband doesn't do things I'd like him to do like sweet gestures and stuff. When we argue (which is a lot more often now even though I've tried to explain to him that I can't control my feelings) he never just gives in and and usually makes it worse. All of my friends have left my side as soon as I got pregnant. I am more sad than I am happy and I have had bad thoughts like hurting myself and even suicide (although I don't think I ever could do it).
I don't know what's wrong with me. This is all so terrible and I am so sad that I am not happier because I feel like this should be one of the greatest moments of my life, and it's not.