I completely understand! I have 40 days to go.
I am about 7 wks to go so I know what you mean, but this is my second. You will be amazed . The labour for me was nothing scary. You never hear about the millions that have normal things happen you only ever hear about the bad ones.
From the time my water broke until i had my son was 11hrs. it was painful yes but that epidural was fantastic! and I really wasn't in a lot of pain until an hour or so before the epidural went in. and I was up walking around that night, much later that night but still that night. I didn't have any pain meds after, nothing but the stool softener that the dr ordered for me. the nurses were all a bit shocked at that. So try not to focus on the horror stories.