Yes you learn until the good Lord calls your number. What you are feeling someone else has felt them as well. It's okay to cry, yell and scream it makes me feel better. Hope you feel better soon.
You are not alone, you have your baby with you, maybe friends and family? This should be a joyful time in your life, dont let a "man" ruin it, you are way stronger than you think sweetie, God would not have put you thru this if he knew you couldn't do it, God said its your time to be a mom, good luck and God bless you =)