Yesterday I went to court to try and get my son Benjamin back. It didn't go so well. The judge thinks I'm to mentally unstable and unprepared for my twins and thought it best to keep my son away from me. I feel like it's making me more upset that he's with strangers and I'm here sitting in a DV shelter alone with no support. I'm really trying to coop with everything but it's hard being alone. I'm sorry I need to let it try and talk to someone who gets how I'm feeling. I'm feeling so alone.....