just letting it out....

[harmony0202]

Maybe about a month ago, my great great grandmother was diagnosed with lung cancer. I've always known her to be strong and not complain. She denied treatment just because she is older and didn't want to go through and of the side effects. She progressively got worse and wasn't able to care for herself. She's been so happy to see her 6th generation born. I went to see her in the hospital and she was telling everybody how blesses she was to live to see that. This past Sunday I went to go see her and she looked like she was already gone. She can't talk anymore, she can't swollow so she's not eating and it hurts for her to be touched. I would love for her to see her great great great grandchild but idk if that's going to happen. I'm 35 weeks.  I feel selfish to even think that she can hang on until my princess is born. Ughhhh idk how to feel what to think. I'm just dreading the day my Grandmom won't be here

[Tabbykatt]

I know exactly how you feel!! My grandmother passed away on Christmas 1998 from lung cancer &bone cancer.I was 14 years old&still this day I wish she could see all her grandchildren &great grandchildren &great great! I'm pregnant with my 3rd now &miss her.I am wishing for you tooooo!!!! I hope your wish comes true"!

[KDQ]

It's not selfish, it's human. It's hard to watch loved ones go downhill and it's even harder to have to say good bye. I hope you get your wish, but if not try to focus on the things she did see. It sounds like she has had a long happy life and that is worth celebrating. Keep your chin up and know she is proud of you!