I really need support right now..

[wild.blue]

I'm just so disturbed right now. I found out more of what happened during the fire I posted about earlier. Everyone was sleeping downstairs except for the oldest boy. I guess the oldest girl woke up her mom who was sleeping with her husband and their baby. Then the mother ran outside and thought everyone was right behind her but when she got outside she was alone. Her oldest daughter went up stairs to wake up her brother. Then the mother saw her daughter pounding on the upstairs window and the mother said "break the window!" and she screamed back "I can't my legs are on fire" The police said no one got out of bed except for the mother and the eldest daughter. Everyone else must have sufficated and difted off.. but the daughter wanted to save her brother so she went upstairs.

I can't understand why the mother allowed her to go upstairs when she knew how bad the fire was. The mother just ran out... assuming everyone was behind her but wouldnt she have noticed that her husband and baby did not get up when the daughter came to wake them up ... why didnt she grab the 2 year old that was sleeping next to her?

Nothing adds up. And all of the news stations are all telling different stories! Some say that the mother was rescued and some say the father made it out but went back in for the children. It is crazy, why are there so many different stories..

Something is wrong. I am trying to stay as calm as possible but all of the details dont make sense. Like how could the mother hear her daughter say she was on fire when she was in the upstairs room, windows shut, and a roaring fire. I can't imagine the mother would be able to hear her..

I dont know, I just think her motherly instincts were lacking and she should have tried harder to save her babies.

[JoyRenee]

I don't feel as though I've done anything, sweetie. But I definitely can say I know what you mean by feeling "eerie" and "creeped out". Death has a strange way of making us feel indescribable and yes, the feeling WILL go away. Give yourself a few days. Mourning for those babies is natural and you should allow yourself that. G'night!

[wild.blue]

My batteries are good- the alarm goes off everytime I burn toast! I am going to be a safety freak now.. but thats not a bad thing.

But my bf is getting concerned about me and wants me to come to bed and relax.. so thanks so much for talkin, it really helped me feel less freaked out. I owe you one!

[JoyRenee]

Oh honey I know how you're feeling! My mom died when I was two weeks pregnant, a pastor died last night, etc. But it is so different when babies die! I am so sorry this is hitting you so close to home. Just make sure your batteries are updated and pray for the family.

[wild.blue]

But I guess I have to just tell myself they are in heaven now.. they went to church every sunday and were a christian family. And they are no longer in pain.. life will move on and I will be sure to take every precaution with my son after he is born

[wild.blue]

Yea, that may be. I just really cant fathom how she ran out of a house that her children were dying in. I want to stop thinking about it but I can't.

Im really afraid to go to sleep since my dreams are so vivid.. hopefully I wont get nightmares. I can't get the image of the little girl upstairs out of my head.

This eery feeling wont go away :'(

[JoyRenee]

That's definitely disturbing because I would've grabbed my kids myself and not even waited for DH. I would have kicked him in the who-know-what to get up and get out and I would've grabbed my children whether they woke up or not!

And if they hadn't of followed me, I would've run back in myself. *SIGH* I just don't know what to tell you, wildblue, because she's the only one who survived she is the only one with the correct story.

She could be in so much shock that her story keeps getting jumbled in her own mind.