so much anger&frustration-help calming down

[marajean21]

I don't want to bore anyone with all the details, but ever since I've come back to PA (almost a whole year now) it seems I cannot catch a break. Things are getting worse fast and I really can't deal woth it. I already have PTSD, depression, and anxiety and with everything going on, it's just too much for me to handle. My bf is less and less of a help-mostly bc of poor communication, but I am at my wits end. My stomach is cramping bc of all the added stress just today brought on and I know stress isn't healthy, esp when pregnant. I can't sit in a bath bc 1 my son will either scream through the door the whole time or end up getting in with me and he is at that age where I'm not comfortable with him bathing with me and 2 our bathroom wall decided to crap the bed and there's constantly debris falling into the tub. I need suggestions to where I can try to relax and get these cramps to go away and hopefully lose a little anger I have built up. I can't just up and leave bc I am responsible for my 2 boys and like I said, my bf hasn't been much of a help lately. What other options can I try before I take it out on my hair and cut it all off or just black out and go crazy???

[marajean21]

Went to the doc today to get a referral for my back and my bp was 170. She was ready to send me to the hospital but after a half hour or so she rechecked and it was 120/80. I think that should've been a sign that I need to take it easy but my bf said obviously I'm fine if I'm not in the hospital. He just doesn't get it..but we are finally on a firmer ground and he at least is trying to keep the boys in order. I guess baby steps. But I still feel like I'm at a permanent stress level and I can't fully destress..

[mamainmay]

Well with you being pregnant (especially with TWINS) and you have 2 other kids you and your bf have to act like adults (not saying your not) and sit down and have an adult conversation..you still have so far to go in this pregnancy so you need a good support system..if you can't find that in your bf. friends. or family you have to find it in yourself and your kids..you have to do what's best for all your kids..if nothing else catch some peace and quiet after the kids go to bed..but you should definitely MAKE your bf sit down with you and just talk it out..without being defensive without getting mad and walking away just sit and talk and don't get up until your satisfied..if he can't do that he's no good!

[marajean21]

I am 15wks along with twins and already have a 2 1/2yr old and almost 4yr old. I have no friends bc of past relationships and my mom and I are just starting to form some sort of bond. She watches my sister's kids, so she doesn't spend too much time with mine even on her off days. It's usually just to drop something off or a special event when my boys get to see her. My sis works and goes to school and aready has 3 kids of her own, plus we don't talk too much bc I don't feel comfortable. My other sis lives farther out and works. 6 days a week. My bro is still in high school and works, and I couldn't tell you if my other 2 brothers were dead or alive. I ended up having to take a shower with both of them bc my bf was getting into one of his fits and I wasn't gna leave the boys out there. I asked him to get them dressed and I got such a dramatic sigh..which is usually what I do get if I ask him for anything, so I figure it's better just to do it myself. I can't stand a guys sigh, it gives me flashbacks and he knows that, so idk why he does it. He acts like anything outside of work is such a chore, but then we do get a min to sit down and no matter how I go about it, he gets defensive and says I'm bi***ing. And I will get this same response if I'm yelling or saying I feel as if(fill in the blank). He will apologize but it never changes so I figure it's easier to act like he just happens to be here living with me, but more like a roommate so he doesn't hurt me. I sleep on the couch partly bc of this and partly bc it's a lot cooler downstairs

[mamainmay]

Ok so you have to calm down...in order for you to get that quiet time that you need you have talk to your bf...I know he's not much help but maybe he's just not sure what he needs to do..if he won't watch your son do you have any friends or family around that will? Since you can't take a bath if you can get some peace and quiet just go to your room and prop up on your bed with some pillows and watch tv or read a book or take a nap or just sit in silence and talk to your baby..how far along are you? Just chill out sit down and have an adult conversation with your bf and try to find someone.anyone who will take your son off your hands for a couple of hours.