Thank you! I will do that. A journal is a wonderful idea. There are a few letters id love to write. I love my children more than anything and I worried for a long time about the repercussions of leaving but after weighing all the options it was best that my children and myself were removed from that situation of abuse. I am so sorry about your ex husbands indiscretions. You are so right about focusing on my children. They deserve everything.
I was married 17 years, found out he was cheating on me for a year with a 16 year old, oh ya and she was pregnant...so he lost his job, he was a cop, I lost my home, lived in a travel trailer with 3 kids, and worried about how to feed my family...sounds bad but I found out just how strong I really was...the way I dealt with it was to keep a journal. I wrote in it every night. If there was something angry I wanted to say to my ex I would write him a letter in my journal. I could say whatever I wanted and not worry cause he would never read it. It helped me get out my frustration. Just keep your head up, concentrate on your kids, and try to make life as easy for them in this situation.
I've been put on meds that stops the paralysis for the most part, they tell me the meds are safe for baby. I have been praying a lot myself. We are now staying with my mom, (its better than my van lol) I just wish I could control how overwhelming the situation is. I know I can handle it I just wish there was a little fix it all pill lol. I appreciate you taking the time to respond, its more comforting than you know.
Omg im sorry u r dealing with this! Do u have any family or friends to lean on for support? Are there any treatments available for ur migraines since u r pregnant? I know doctors aren't very helpful sometimes. I also have a migraine disorder but mine is controlled with a daily medication.( correction it was but I can't take the meds while pregnant or breastfeeding.) The only thing I do when I am really upset or stressed is go take a long soak in the bath. After that I spend some time in prayer. Good luck to u and I hope things get better soon.