well, chris got home at 6am(he always does that to me lol).....so earlier we decided to stop by our friends house, the one i mentioned just found out she was pregnant? well, we werent paying attention that her truck was gone, and when her brother finally decided to answer the door, and let us know that at 3am today she went to the hospital with some bleeding, but major cramping....and i feel soooo bad for her, b/c she just got that u/s that showed the baby had a heartbeat of 153! so we're not positive yet that she has definitely had a miscarriage, but we won't know what's happened until later today......
this will be her 3rd miscarriage in approximately 2 years...i'm going to feel so horrible "growing" around her now.....but it seems right after the ER (apparently the dr's didnt want to do anything, and apparently told her to just go home).....but she's at her specialist now....she was rated high risk immediately after her BFP, due to all the issues she had with her sons 8 years ago, and something that happened with her CSEC.....so now me and chris are really trying to not discuss it at all(between ourselves of course), but we do know that each time she has gotten pregnant, rather than let God and Nature handle things, she immediately beings stressing, and i mean STRESSING, to the point of complete exhaustion, inability to eat etc.....so hopefully we'll know soon what's going on, and i'll try to keep you guys updated......we're really hoping everything is ok, because they pretend they weren't planning *her* (we're hoping lol), but right now they are able to do everything, and afford it and they have their new house, so it's almost perfect timing and we know they planned it, in a way ya know?
well, just help me with the prayer ring ladies, and hope all is well.....
thanks for listening, and after reading the posts with the m/c stillbirth poems, i've just bawled, with my hormones on top of my impending baby and possibly the loss of our *niece*.....so yea, i guess i'm more torn up than i should be right now maybe? but please, keep her (ms johnson) in our prayers....no i didnt say her name, she'd freak out if i did lol