Pregnancy and Addiction

[Ayla_J]

Hello,
I know that marijuanna is horribly bad for your baby, or so I believe.
But I have been smoking marijuanna for two years now, and I did not know I was pregnant til a week ago,and I am 7wks along. Im really worried about my babys health and well being, and Im trying my best to deal with this addiction.
I tried to quit cold turkey, but I was too sick to go to work, and I need to keep my job or I have nothing to offer my baby, so I ended up smoking a bat *one hitter, equaling one puff* just to help me cope..
I have done this three times this week, which is a real big cut back on my behalf and if I was just quitting I would be so proud of myself, but instead I am so upset and depressed because I am trying my best, and If I dont do this gradual cut down, I wont even eat anything, I just throw it up...is this wrong to do, and if it is what do i do!!! I am so worried about my baby, I hope everything is okay and I just want a healthy baby...
I had a miscarriage over a year ago, and I knew I was pregnant right away, and I stopped smoking completely right away but I never had this bad sickness feeling of which I am dealing with this time, so I hope you understand and please help....
Im so desperate for helpful advice, and I dont need anyones negativity, at this point I need sensitivity and understanding to help me and my baby.
Thank You,

[Ayla_J]

thank you guys, I am doing a little better each day i think, at least after talking to a couple people on this site, it gave me some more hope and strength and determination. I haven't touched it at all yesterday and I plan to not touch anything from now on...no matter what...i do have the week off work now, and am planning to just sleep it all off and I actually ate something last night, just a burrito, but its a start....Im very happy that I was able to eat without bringing it right back up or not able to swallow it at all...which is what I have been dealing with. It took me probably an hour and a half to get through the small burrito, but I ate it, and feel a little better about everything...I still feel sick, but its amazing because I already feel a hundred times better...I think my nerves may be causing me alot of illness as well, as well as my guilt for whats already been done....but I really do thank everyone for the support, and prayers, its already making me a stronger person mentally and physically...THANK YOU~!!!  I dont have family or anyone other than my fiance to talk to and many may know that sometimes men just dont cut it for emotional discussions...especially when he hasn't quit smoking himself...and doesnt understand my ups and downs of pregnancy while quitting....but im so happy i found this site, I really do need someone to talk to about everything~!...and its comforting to know many are out there dealing with the same or other issues and are able to give advice and help. God bless.

[scared_mommy]

First of all Ayla congrats on your pregnancy.  I'm sorry that you have this addiction that seems so hard to overcome.  My sister had her baby this year in June.  She was under the impression that marijuana isn't bad or it isn't as bad as cigarettes.  Unfortunately it's her baby who is going thru the hard time now.  My neice was born without a Pulmonary Artery which is one of the main artery's that connect's the heart to the lungs.  This is very serious.  She stopped breathing a couple of hours after birth.  She had to undergo emergency heart surgery and will have several more before she turns 1 years of age.  She was also born with a small birth defect in her thumb--she has an extra thumb.  Luckily it doesn't have a bone so they will be able to remove it.  I know it may seem HARD Ayla to quit but going thru what my neice and my sister went thru just isn't worth it.  My sister is now very depressed and of course blames herself for what her daughter has to go thru.  PLEASE STOP COLD TURKEY EVEN IF IT MAKES YOU FEEL LIKE YOUR IN HELL...ONCE YOU HAVE THIS BABY AND IT'S HEALTHY YOU'LL LOOK BACK AND KNOW IT WAS WELL WORTH IT FOR YOU TO HAVE SUFFERED THAN THE BABY....BEST WISHES AND MY PRAYERS ARE WITH YOU.

[Jame0223]

I know how you feel! Even though I was not pregnant. I was addicted to that ****. Really its not a physical addiction. If you went two weeks without touching weed youde start to feel no need for it. I know you cant eat anything, I wasnt able to either. You just have to force it down and eat very blan things. I hated not being able to smoke but i knew i had to do it. I eventually got over not being able to eat without smoking. Ive been clean for two months, so i actually quit right before i got pregnant. Although I had a miscarriage on friday, I still don't smoke. You just need to tell yourself you can't smoke. I know being sick and worried doesnt help wanting to smoke. Been there done that. Its incredibly hard, but once you get past a couple weeks of not smoking youll realize that it was easier then you thought. I smoked everyday (at least a gram of good stuff) for almost...2 years id say. Its harder then people think, but it is conquerable. Just remember that its whats best for your baby. good luck

[eborman]

Hi there. I've been threw what you are. When I found out i was pregant with my first son i was already eight weeks. I had ben smoking every day for the longest time! I was 18 then and didn't really know how bad it "could" hurt my baby. He turnd out compleatly healthy however. It took me some time to beat the habit but it was easier once he started moving in my belly. That for me was when the real guilt hit ! A friend of mine ( not saying this is ok cause i would have never done this, i've been pregnant four times now) smoked during her whole pregnancy. Her daughter is now 16 months old a seems to be in good health. She was a very tiny baby though and still is. I read some where that you wouldn't really know the side effects of your child till they are older and are in school. And then you'll truly see if they have a learning disability. The only real thing i have to say i guess is that I've ben there, and you know whats best for you and your child so i'm sure in the long run you will make the best decisions for your self and your baby.
Good luck!

[Ayla_J]

Im happy to hear that, its sad to see all whats going on in the world...I know they are in a great place. I will keep in touch with you after I put up a profile on here, and I will keep you updated with my progress, and I really hope you get your turn to have a baby soon, Im sure it will be a beautiful baby from the looks of your pic...Thanks for the help really, thanks,
Ayla

[Brown Eyed Gurl]

well I'm out of here I get off work now so good luck and if you need anything just holler I hang out in the fertility/infertility forum most of the time.