Terrified - Vent

[Crystal125]

Monday I'll be 22 weeks, every day I get more and more terrified. I have so many painful contractions and when I go to the doctor they never really give me any good news. Just happen to mention how she's not viable until 24 weeks :(. I see the specialist a lot more now. My stomach is really sore to touch it most of the time, and I feel like my bones in "that" area are snapping a lot. I just want to make it at least until she's viable but every day seems to get worse and I have a massive clot right on top of my cervix that doesn't seem to want to leave or dissolve. The specialist thinks it could cause my water to break.. IDK what to do anymore :(. I start 17P within the next week. I just feel like the contractions I'm having aren't braxton hicks, because they actually hurt really bad, and make my stomach hurt to even touch it. I have 8-9+ a day, possibly more, I went to the hospital last weekend and had 2 in 45 minutes. I just can't get my doctors to understand that what I'm feeling isn't normal feeling. I mean I never hurt with my previous pregnancies even though both were born prematurely. I had no clue anything was even wrong until they doctors themselves pointed it out right before I had them. When I wake up in the mornings my "crotch" area hurts so badly I can't even walk or sit upright for at least a good hour. Even now it feels like everything in there is ripping to shreds. Not to mention all the bleeding I've had with this pregnancy. I don't want to have to bury my daughter, and I dont think I'd survive doing that. I honestly "feel" like I'm not going to make it to 24 weeks though. I mean every day I cramp/contract worse than the day before. It's just worse for me thinking something is going to happen knowing she's perfectly healthy and she kicks like a little soccer player... I mean she actually makes my stomach move kicking and I can see it through my shirts. I wish there was something the doctors could actually do or look at to ease my mind, or at least with hold some information until I made it to 24 weeks. I'm terrified to move thinking my water is going to break. Sigh =(

[dnikki0928]

I've seen my fair share of preemies - and there is always hope if they are born too early. Especially since she seems to be so healthy and kicking you like a soccer player!!
I agree with the above poster... REST, REST, REST and FLUIDS (one's that are good for you)!!! I think you also try to stay as + as possible even though it seems the impossible right now... Your baby knows when you stress out and it affects her too....

Take it easy and take care :)
Good Luck :)

[LosingMyMindInGA]

I saw a post not long ago about a baby born at 22 wks that survived.  So there IS hope.  also...braxton hicks contractions CAN be painful.  I went through a bout with them several weeks ago.  BAsically I had to slow down, take it easy and drink TONS of water and they stopped hurting so much.  ALSO, the baby had flipped and was feet down so when I contracted his feet were poking me in the cervix and it really hurt.  BUT I wasn't dialating or anything.  Just take it easy.  Relax, if the doc hasn't put you on strict bed rest, put yourself on it.  Remember to take it easy and drink PLENTY of fluids.  Water, 100% juice and plain tea...no sports drinks, caffeineted drinks or artificial juice.  Dehydration can cause pretty intense, painful Braxton Hicks contractions.