Weight gain/eating disorder

[csam89]

So im 15w 1d and i feel like ive put on si much weight already, i started at  around 142lbs i went down to 136 because of morning sickness now im up to 151. i just dread getting on the scale. I guess i kinda have an eating disorder, ill make myself puke if i feel like ive eaten too much or binge and purge sometimes. Ive been doing it for about 6 years, this is my second pregnany, i did it pretty much the.whole time with my first ive managed to keep it under control pretty good this time (ive made myself puke 3 times after i felt i ate to much) and normally id do it every other day. I told my fiance about it about a month before i got prego but i dont think he realises how bad it is or hard it is for my, other then that i havent told anyone. I know its a good thing for me to gain weight right now and all that jazz but its hard to aee the scale go up especially so fast. I also know its impprtant to make sure my baby gets all the nutrients he/she needs and i do eat enough and eat very healthy (whenever id binge and purge it would be bad unhealthy food that i normally would eat) im excited about getting a big baby belly but right now im in between and just look fat haha Just wondering if anyone else is in the same boat as me and if my weight gain is normal so far.
Thanks :)

[sazjaz]

I gained like two dress sizes in my first twelve weeks so don't have worried everyone is different just remember its all for baby and will be gone after xx

[Crystal215]

I am 19 weeks and gained 14lbs so far but I gained most of it in my first 12 weeks I blew up quick and I don't eat as much as I probably should everyones pregnancy is different

[csam89]

Is that alot of weight to gain at this point?

[csam89]

Is that alot of weight to gain at this point?

[csam89]

Is that alot of weight to gain at this point?

[KTowne]

Well once in a while throwing up your body knows no difference between morning sickness and binging and purging, as long as you aren't doing it constantly. I don't think it's a matter of not getting the nutrients to your baby if it's once in a while, do you plan on breastfeeding? I breastfed my son and lost the baby weight within a few weeks after having him!! It helped take so much weight off!

[csam89]

Thanks, i think i have it pretry well under control, i have slipped a couple times but ives been doing so much better then i was before i.got pregnant. Its just hard sometimes because.i feel like im getting fat because ive been eating more and not throwing up not becauae of the baby

[KTowne]

If it's something you can't help yourself with, you definitely should see someone professional to talk to about it. And you're right, your baby needs all the nutrients it can get, make sure you're taking a prenatal as well as eating. Really, if you're eating right, exercising, the scale is only going up because of baby weight. It might look like you're "fat" but you're not, so if you think eating too much triggers your binging and purging, stop yourself when you think you might be full enough, and only eat healthy foods, you'll lose the baby weight in no time after you have him/her. I hope things get better for you hun!!

[csam89]

This is really hard for me to talk about, but everyone in here is so supportive it seemed like the easiest place to turn