What if Miracle TOO SOON...!!

[hotmama78]

Dear ladies...

I am here to ask for some comfort if some of you might willing to offer.. I am lost baby Aidan at 21weeks last Jan 15, during the c-sec i am cut and burnt my tube, last few days i am posting of possibility i am preggy and i am 2weeks away to find out what's going on as my Doctor advised me to wait for this month cycle.

At this point i am very much felt i am bcos all the sign and the way my cycle turn up side down (having spotting last 2 days) and the only time i boom into such situation is when i am pregnant.. the latest up date is my c-sec scar is often having on and off shooting pain but is not last is just like few second but is come and go...

Just say... JUST.... i am truly pregnant is this can danger my life as i am just 4months away fr the c-sec....?? what can i do in this 2weeks time to wait till my Doctor appointment to calm myself down... i am often crying lately for no reason but deep in my heart i was just actually too scare... :(

Hugs...xxx
Rachel

[hotmama78]

Ladies...

Actually what worry me the most is TUBAL pregnancy & too soon after c-sec... and honestly IF i were really pregnant either i wasn't sure if that really what i want anymore.

I've plan life ahead with Baby Aidan when the time i am pregnant him.. my life ahead is all about him and him and him... and out of no where i left to the situation of need to sit down and re-arrange my entire life ahead once again.

Is really not cool and devastating of keep on changing plan bcos is making me feel like failure... NONE OF THE THINGS I PLAN can really happen... :( he is not my 1st... is my 5th fail pregnancy already, every time i plan something ahead like travel.. further study.. doing some simple business i get preggo... then i stuck again.. then after couples of month M/C again... plan again..

Is really seems to me in this 4years of marriage i archive nothing but fail pregnancy.. is really given me some sort of given up feeling..!! so i decided over the tube cut and burnt and put an end there so i can moving on which i am recently did..

I explore Indonesia, i did some charity there with those unfortunate.. visiting some welfare house in the same time having an awesome holidays with my friend fr all over the country, we went to Bandung shopping crazy and visit Bali for relaxing, in fact i am having my ticket booked for few next destination this year and i am very much into it already plus we have plan ahead what are we going to do during my visit...!!

So life for me seems to be so much set and i am looking forward to starting my very own Daycare & cafe at my condominium early next year, but then what happen is here i am sick all day long, my pant's hardly pin up. My tummy push up like 6 to 8 week preggo lady. My mood swing badly, my spotting on and off.. fever.. cold.. cough.. flu.. crying for no reason.. like and dislike certain foods..

I am so much angry actually right now...!! and my Doctor just no way to see me until June 24... honestly i just felt like wanna blow up and disappear right away... this is really given me HIGH MAX DEPRESSION and i can't talk about it with my closes friend's concern of they might thought i am losing my mind once again...!!! poor me really :(

Hugs...xxx
Rachel...

[mandamouse21]

I have a friend who she had her tubes tied right after her daughter was born and like 4 months later she was pregnant again. Its a veey low chance of getting prregnant but can happen, she is considered high risk and has to go every week to an ob and also see a specialist.

[KTowne]

I totally agree, it CAN happen, it's just not likely, and when it does, it can be dangerous! I was worried I was having an ectopic pregnancy in the beginning from some pretty intense pains on one side, and I was soo worried until my ultrasound, thank god it wasn't, but things like that are VERY scary, I'm sure you're just fine hun, if you're really concerned, call them and tell them you're leaving town, you want to know ASAP because it can be life threatening, and see if they can move it up!

[hotmama78]

That's very much relaxing my feeling to know that i am not the only one, i was very concern bcos i am very sure i am moving on, having fun with my life since the 3 prefect cycle is like fixed so i very much happy.. and when i get all the sign and the cycle turn upsidedown i was like WHAT....??? again....?? bcos that exactly i am when i preggo.. so i scare.. :( but pregnant or not i am sure will find out what exactly happening.. my mind was saying 0.1% chance is still a chance and i don't want under estimated that as if it's tubal pregnancy is life treat i know...!!!

[KTowne]

My sister had a few "scares" after her tubes were cut and burned, and it turned out to be nothing each time, my periods were also regular for 2-3 months after my c-section, then wacky a few cycles, then regular again, it's normal, especially after getting a major surgery, I wouldn't stress about it, chances are everything is just fine!!

[hotmama78]

Thank you so much dear.. i was really trying hard to move on and so far everything was good until my May cycle turn my world up side down.. :( i was having so much fun with BFF and planning to visit each of them and my ticket a booked and our plan is set. But then here i am after a 3 months prefect cycle wondering... worrying.. and i hope is just truly my hormone. I just hate being in my situation right now after all the hard work i am doing to fix back my life back to track. Move on and looking forward what God does store for me after a huge lost but then i felt myself back to the starting point again.. :(

Hugs..xxx
Rachel

[FreshLove]

My c-section scar had on-and-off shooting pain for 6 months after the surgery and it wasn't until a year later that I felt completely back to "normal." As for being pregnant so soon after a c-section, it isn't the best but women have done it before and been ok. You will most likely have to have another c-section because they would be so close, but otherwise you and baby would be fine, just take it easy during the pregnancy.

However, you may not be pregnant. It takes a few months for our bodies to get back to normal after pregnancy, especially when you had major surgery as well (c-section). My cycles didn't get regular until my son was about 15 months old, but all women are different. My point is, going based off symptoms is not that accurate, especially so soon after birth/stillborn. The best thing to do would be to live healthy, try to stay positive, and calm while you wait for your doctor. It's not easy, but it's the best for you.

[hotmama78]

Waoooo dear... thanks a millions that really comforting.. yes in fact i just fr Bali trip with my Australian friend and i do really having great time. But since my return this is what happen to me and i am sick up till i write this comment.. i facing cold and flu and this is how i am when i preggy..

My next destination was Bangkok but is coming August, and i already got ticket book as well my Hubby leave apply has fixed i can't change them last minute as being a country manage is not an easy task for him to get a long leave easily.. :(

I am just don't know what is in my mind right now as i am truly firm with my decided to cut my tube and burnt during that time and now here i am with so many ????? in my hear spinning around not yet give me a so many WHAT IF... WHAT IF... honestly i am just so scare nightmare keep repeating even the fact i know is not always the same but in my case for 5times is no different at all... :(

Hugs...xxxx
Rachel