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[serbe30]

I have had 5 pregnancies....1st was vaginal, 2nd was emergency c-section cuz of the plecanta tearing away at 35weeks, 3rd was going to be a vbac but there was fetal distress so again it was a c-section, 4th was a planned c-section a week before the due date.  the fourth child is now turning 6 this year and I had plans to get my tubes tied because I feel i am done having childern and am content with my life. Well i was married for 9 yrs and have been divorced 3yrs and am recently living with my BF of 1.5yrs. We found out 2 months b4 my tubal ligation that i was pregnant. This was not a good thing as we decided neither of us wanted anymore kids and the Dr said after my last child that having another baby would be risking my own health. freaking out and taking into consideration i wanted to make sure i was around for my kids we decided that an abortion was the logical and right decision for us(please dont be judgemental, i am still going thru emotional turmoil because of it) so i had the procedure done and it was horrible and said i never want to do that again. I am 1 month to my tubal and although we have been using the birth control patch and condoms i find myself pregnant again. Its no longer about not wanting to be or wanting to be a parent again I am worried about my health and if i decide to go thru with the pregnancy wat kind of damage my body has gone thru and how is this going to affect my health the babys health and r my kids now going to have a mom to watch them grow up. Im freaking out and need to know wat is instore for my health.  

[serbe30]

I actually said to my BF...."do u think someone is trying to tell us something? he said ya "keep it in your pants" "....lol. But really he is very supportive and says watever i decide he is behind me 100%. I know he wants me to have the procedure again cuz he is not wanting to be a dad again, but he said he's not going to ask me to do that again (not that he asked the first time cuz he didnt buti know wat he means).  I really dont want to go thru the procedure again but i worry about wat this will do to my body and if the risk is too high. I just want to be there to raise the kids i have. Im just scared and I used to be pro life and to have had an abortion is very trying on my emotions. I dont want to be a parent again but i dont think abortion is an option again. and adoption is outta the question.....for many reasons. I guess Ive already made up my mind its just the health risk that has me freaked out

[JoyRenee]

If your health and life are in danger then it is an obvious decision to make. C-sections and a previous abortion, however, won't necessarily affect a new pregnancy. Placental abruption (when the placenta pulls away prematurely) is not something that will happen with every pregnancy; it was a one-time thing. So I'm not fully understanding what health issues have you so concerned.

If I were you and being in this position I would continue with the pregnancy and have regular doctor visits and possibly bedrest later on just to make sure all is well and safe. You know the turmoil you're going through because of your recent abortion; do you want that guilt and remorse doubled?

Honestly none of us know the extent of your health issues and we're not doctors. It would be best to discuss this with your doctor. I can only tell you what I would do in that situation. If you choose to end this little life as well perhaps the doctor can go ahead and do the tubal. Also you may want to ask your BF to look into a vasectomy as well. Good luck!

[neecy28411]

ok try to relax this is a hard situation for u and i hope u find some comfort. now if infact u really did everything to prevent this pregnancy then ended up preg again then i really dont think this is ur plan i believe its gods plan now just so u know i aint like some radical or anything even remotely close but think about this, ur using birthcontrol and protection and this happens TWICE come one like i said u may think ur done but maybe" someone else" has different plans for u and if thats the case youll be ok and you will pull through just fine good luck to u and yours