Hey ladies =)

[keepurfaith]

This will be on and off topic a bit. I haven't been on here in such a while. Here's a few things going on. DH & I stopped TTC for now. As hard as it is to do so, I have a reason to. I wish I didn't have to but I do know in the long run it'll be worth it. My doctor said if I get pregnant then, well I get pregnant but I'll need to be watched carefully. My weight has gotten way out of control due to the stress of the holidays, and TTC with no luck. I can't tell you girls how hard it is to see everyone point out my weight. It's like duh, I can see it myself. I'm so close to Disease risk for type 2 diabetes and hypertension. You know I didn't think it would bother me to be overweight some because I thought it wasn't "that bad".. Man I'm so wrong. lol Anyways, I'm trying a few new exercises and eating right and not just whatever someone cooks because of the holidays. I can do better than that.. Although the food is so good. lol


I'm really sad and confused about not being able to TTC right now. If I'm already this close to Disease risk for type 2 diabetes and hypertension, Pregnancy will prove to be a challenge I'm assuming. I see pregnant women all the time. Kind of like Awwweh! But, GRR!! lol (jk jk) lol. I so wish I could be pregnant going into the year 2009! lol


I'm sorry if this topic was either way off, or whoa. lol I just needed to vent it out a little bit. Thanks for listening though. DH has heard enough from me. *snickers*  =)
The main thing I can do is stay positive and know that when I'm supposed to be pregnant the time will come. It's more important right now that I lose this weight, and get healthy again. -sigh-

[keepurfaith]

Thanks SO much! I honestly at one point thought maybe I should switch doctors. I didn't even worry about my weight before I was told I needed to lose it.. Sure, I'd be concerned sometimes but DH never complained. He says I'm fine the way I am. And I know he would tell me if it got that out of control. I'm only 5'2. So I'm not that tall, of course weight will be shown more. When I said I had loads of ewcm. I really mean it. It was the most I've seen in a long long long time! Maybe all I needed to do is lose 5 pounds! LOL Which I've lost 7. And, I feel fine, I look normal.. So my doctors and a few nurses expressing how IMPORTANT it is to lose the weight NOW, made me feel uneasy.

UGH. I get frustrated just thinking how doctors are sometimes. What was even more ridiculous, is my doctor was much taller than me, but he was hefty himself. So the expressing how it needs to be done now or I'll regret it later made me a little mad.
Okay I'm going to stop rambling about it. lol


Since DH & I did have unprotected sex, he "pulled out" but, still could happen, I'm just going to wait and see what happens. And, If I do end up pregnant, I'll just be careful.




I was thinking though, If I lose the weight, I'll just be really upset if I got pregnant.. Not because I would become a mother, just because the weight would be right back. And I'd have to lose it all again. It's crazy!! lol

[kikicoates78]

OK .... I think it is great that you are trying to get healthy, but everyone who is obese is at risk for those things, high risk, my mother is diabetis, has heart disease , love her heart is in remission from cancer... ( So my risk factor is huge) and I too am over weight I am 5 ft tall and weighed 279 pounds when I got pregnant. I have lost weight during the pregnancy b/c I feel the urgency to be healthier for me and my baby. OK the point I was trying to get at, Doctors are so fast to tell you these are the problems with you ttc, you are too heavy and thats why you are not pregnant, in some cases that maybe truth, but honey you are ovulating thats your body's way of telling you you can get pregnant, If you have a normal cycle your weight should not affect your fertilty. When your weight is the culprit in infertility you would not ovulate, b/c your hormone would be off kilter. It did take me 5 yrs to conceive this time around, only due to scar tissuse engulfing the only overy I have. I was heavy with my last pregnancy as well and first cycle of trying we were succesful.

Don't make yourself miserable and beat yourself up over your weight that won't help you lose it, and don't blame yourself for the problems with TTC, it is just a mean vicious cylce.  

My heart goes out to you and if ever you want to chat I'm always around here.

Ps. I dont know your history so there maybe there is more to your DX. I just hate it when doctors blame EVERYTHING on being over weight, there are skinny infertile people, and skinny people with heart disease as well! Good luck in all your efforts!

[sweetangel7]

I hope this doesn't sound offensive but when I was younger/in high school, I was overweight and very uncomfortable with myself.  I went to weight watchers and lost about 40 pounds in less than a year....I didn't even exercise!  I know it is important now but the point is, even by changing the way you eat, you can and will lose weight.  I am 21 w tomorrow and I already plan on going back to ww to get the weight off.  If you follow the plan, you will keep it off too.

And diet products, I've tried literally every single one of them with no results.  I look back and feel badly now for what I have done to my body by putting that stuff into it!  I've been 'clean' for a couple years although I am slightly gullible I see new products and they perk my interest lol  BUT I have learned that there is no substitute for diet and exercise.

[keepurfaith]

Thanks Joy =) It's just really hard to give them up! lol. I've started drinking green tea instead of regular tea. I can't give it up! haha. The soda's.. Well yeah I had a little today lol But not like I usually do. I don't feel so sluggish since I'm cutting back. I haven't had a mtn dew in so long that when I tasted it (which was why it was a LITTLE lol) it tasted like fish water! LOL! It was horrible.....

The thing I'm worried about is.. well I woke up loads of ewcm yesterday.. And being that I'm ovulating, my sex drive is high! So, we BD'd. I know the pull out "method" isn't very reliable but, we didn't have any other type of protection. :-S He pulled out but we went back not even 5 minutes later and BD'd again. ( I wasn't kidding about my sex drive! lol)
Then right after we finished I just about slapped my own head off my shoulders! I can't believe I was stupid not to say okay that's enough.. We BD'd day before yesterday & yesterday both w/o protection...
I probably shouldn't worry because all the other times we've done the "pull out" it didn't work.. but I do know that there is ALWAYS a chance it COULD happen.

A PICKLE IN A EGG CARTON! HAHA. As my mom would put it.... lol

I should have been more responsible..

DH was telling me that if while I'm trying to lose weight, I end up pregnant.. It just means I have motivation to get healthy and protect the baby. I guess to make me feel better because I'd be scared with how my weight is. I'm not like over the top overweight, I just need to lose some to get away from being borderline.....



Ahh, I just rambled all the way down this page! lol

[JoyRenee]

I'm not a huge fan of the show but I catch it from time-to-time. You should think about doing the Biggest Loser challenge. I just bought a workout video of Jillian's (one of the trainers) and it is KICK BUTT. I love it. She has three levels of intensity. I'm still on the first.

We start off with jumping jacks and "jump roping" (without a jump rope). It's 20 minutes of this cycle that is supposed to be really good.

Cutting soda and treats will be great for you. After a while you won't even crave them anymore. Your body has just gotten so used to it. You can do it!!! And then when you do get pregnant it will be all the more sweeter.

[keepurfaith]

They just told me to eat properly.. 3 meals 5 snacks as long as their healthy.. Lay off the soda's... That's all I drink! LOL And plenty of exercise. If I stick to it and cut out most of the sugars and fats I'll be in good shape.. If I don't start losing weight i'll go back and see what else there is I can do that will help it along. I'm borderline for those things, so cutting most of the junk out might make a difference. =)

I sure hope so! I keep seeing things about these weight loss stuff.. I don't believe in them.. I'll PM you when I get a chance and tell you the one my moms tried and.. She said she lost weight but, I don't know what the chances are it won't come back! lol

[ashiepooh]

Awwwww!!!!  BLAME YOUR DOCTOR!!!  lol...  I'm sorry!

Did your doctor reccomend anything to help you get down to a perfect weight, and speed up the process?

[keepurfaith]

Thank You =)

What makes this worse, is I woke up to loads and loads of ewcm. The most I've seen in months. -cries- mannnnnnnnnnnnn. lol I've never seen someone in my state of health end up pregnant and everything be fine. Boo.


lol

[ashiepooh]

Well, hng in there!  We will be here to support you!!!  =)