preg 16yr old rape victim - SCARED AND CONFUSED! HELP PLEASE?

[Fallen1991Angel]

I am 16 years old, 17 this February.  I was raped on the beach at night on November 3, and I am pregnant as a result of it.  My family does not know yet (I want a good Christmas before I tell them...) Now when I am home alone when it is dark, I get these almost panic attacks when I am not in my room.  I have all the doors locked (checked once after I locked them), lights are on.  When I am in the open, I freak out.  My heart starts racing, my asthma acts up, and I start to shake.  It only stops when I go into my room and lock my door and double check my windows and draw the shades.  Is it typical to have new fears while pregnant, or is this something like PTSD?  I am scared, and lost...

[KellyA74]

You are an amazing person.....You will be a great Mom regardless of the situation......I give you so much credit and sound like you have a plan despite being very young...Lots of people have had babies early in life and have gone on to do great things....You will be one of those people.....Bless you....And you've come to the right website...tons of support and great info. when you get nervous, worried, etc.  I wish you nothing but the best from here on out.

[Fallen1991Angel]

*blushes*  thank you.  i know it is going to be ok.  wow, that's awesome!  congratulations.

i will.  

i'm going to talk to somebody about  it when i feel i can actually talk without freezing up.  i would never resent my child.  i love children too much, and the fact that this one is mine just strengthens that love.  i won't blame my child for something that is not their fault.  despite the circumstances, this child is a blessing.

thank you.

[Fallen1991Angel]

:)  thanks.  its hard for me to even say that word - rape - out loud.  i mean, it's a 4 letter word.  can it actually describe the horror of the act?  i don't think so.  idk, sometimes it just wierd...

[diva_lorri]

i commend you on your maturity and dignity.... i have faith in you that you will be A GREAT mother and will be just fine. all the best to you and your little one... enjoy xmas and i am very sure it will not be the last one you enjoy. you will just have more to enjoy and more to be thankful from every xmas here in. i too am pregnant and due the same time as you, end of july. my husband and I have been tc for a long time and we are so blessed it has now happened.
my best friend was raped a few years back and never told anyone but me. i wish now I had have urged her more to tell someone as she ended up committing suicide due to the guilt she didnt deserve to have follow her. i please, please, please beg of you to take some legal action or at least get some advice.
i believe that if you can get some closure on this aspect of your life your pregnancy will be much more enjoyable and your future wih your child will not have that cloud over your head. it would be awful to resent your child for something they had no say in.
all the best to you honey and ill keep you in my thoughts.
xx lorri

[lil_mama_1988]

hey i was 13 when i got raped i didnt get pregnant but i know how hard it can be to think about that guy coming back for you i am 19 now and proud to say a mother of a beautiful little girl she'll be 4 months on the 23rd i wanted to do a lot of things with my life and i am still pursuing my goals i want to be a nurse too and i plan on starting college in the spring as far as your stepdad, my father has the same temper and he actually hit me when i was 5 months pregnant i just look to god for support and i look at my daughter and thank god that i had her her father is a a**hole and i am no longer with him it is difficult being a single mother but as long as youhave the support from your family and friends its a lot easier. i live in another state from where her father is and he doesnt even call and ask about her but i dont mind though i dont need him cuz hey, who brought us into this world a woman so we know we have the strength to do it just relax and think about all the good times you will have when your baby is here i told my mother and she wasnt exactly happy but the next day, she was overwhelmed so good luck and you can message me anytime

[girl0319]

I am due March 19... I know how your feeling and it gets scarier the closer I get... But just the fact that you are putting all those questions in check shows that you are going to be a good mother... It'll be hard for both of us but all we can do is do our best right? I am having a girl and I am so happy! I am going to name her Ayla Rose... I really thought I was having a BOY! But it turns out I wasnt! Hopefully you dont jinx yourself LOL!