Hello everyone, I’m here because I’m struggling with a issue and I need some input and clarity. Please give me your honest opinion. What do you think I did wrong? I know this is a long message , but I appreciate if you could read it and respond.
’m feeling like a constant failure with dating and relationships. I need help and guidance.
About me, I’m 32 and I have no kids, never married. I think that I am a good person. I’m extremely loyal to friends and in relationships. I have never cheated on anyone in my life. I have good morals and values. I have a good sense of humor, I love to laugh and have fun. I’m a hard worker, graduated from graduate school 2 times. I am very attractive and I take care of my body. I'm very giving, supportive, forgiving, and very affectionate. I was in a relationship for 7 years, but it didn’t work out. Despite that my ex of 7 years and I are great friends, and I have been in love and I know what it feels like to be in love and have a good man that treats me well. We broke up in 2007 so I’ve been single, yet dating for many years.
I’m 32 now, and still single. I’ve been single since 2007 and dating in this day is hard. Why is that? I look for guys similar to me with similar life styles. I like educated, hardworking men, with no kids. I don’t date bad boys. But obviously I’m still choosing men that I am incapable with. The guys i date turn out to be jerks.
I met a guy a few years ago, and we dated for a few months back in 2009-2010. Back then he was 29, a virgin, masters degree, never had a girl friend. I liked him, but he was highly defensive, could not take a joke, and didn’t communicate well with me. He didn’t have many close friends. I thought that his communication skills were influenced by his family because his family is from another continent, but they moved to the US before he was born. He never told me how he felt about me. But he continued to invite me on dates and I enjoyed being around him. We had chemistry. It just wasn’t going anywhere. Plus we lived 1.5 hours away from each other. We stopped dating. So in June of 2013, I reconnected with him at a party. He was so happy to see me and vice versa. The chemistry was strong. We couldn’t stop hugging each other. It felt so good to see him. We started dating again.
So everything was going fine the first month. He and I now lived 1 hour away from each other. We would take turns driving to see each other. And we went on two dates a week. I had no problem driving to him, but he never seemed too excited about driving to me. He always complained about putting miles on his car, etc. But I continued to drive to see him once or twice a week. Gas is expensive, but I never complained! Him and I began sleeping together.
So I thought things were fine.
Then oneday, he asked me “why do you like me?”. I told him that he was a good person and I enjoyed being around him”. I was being sincere. I then asked him the same…. He replied by saying that we needed to discuss me and my personality. He said that in order for me to be with him I would have to change my personality. I was confused! He’s know me for years, and im the same person from years before. I’m always myself so there wasn’t a surprise. I asked him to clarify what was wrong with me and my personality….He then told me that I expected him to do too much. He didn’t appreciate having to open doors for me or carrying grocery bags. He then went on to say that we are 50/50 and I should pay my own way on dates. I was so confused because I didn’t know there was a problem. When he and I went on dates, the dates were not expensive. I never ordered expensive meals on a date and I don’t eat much. He would spend 10 or 12 dollars on me once or twice a week. I honestly was offended by the conversation. I drive 46 miles on a round trip to see him, but I’m not good enough to eat a 10 dollar dinner. He and I began to argue! I was insulted! I am use to being treated like a lady, and I am a good woman. I need a gentleman and a chivalrous man. I’ve never been a gold-digger, but that’s how he made me feel. I never asked him for anything in my life! We stopped talking for about a week. I was sad. Him and I had been having sex, and I got attached to him. I really cared about him.
So I began sending him text messages, but he ignored me. I told him how I felt about him, but he ignored me for a week. I felt so used and abandoned. After a week, he told me that the silent treatment would be good for us. Then he told me that I needed to become humble to be with him. He never communicated with me….He doesn’t express himself well. I just thought he was shy. He had no emotions, but he was so affectionate.
Him and I made up, and went 2 more months seeing each other. The last time I saw him we were fine I thought. I paid for the whole date and I didn’t know we were still having problems.
Then the next day, I asked him did he see me in his future. Out of nowhere “he said no”. I asked why he didn’t share this news with me sooner. He couldn’t not explain, he had nothing to say. After 30 minutes all he could say is that he was confused. He said he wanted to be with me last week, but this week he didn’t feel the same. He said we have nothing in common. I was shocked and humiliated. If he had a change of heart he should have told me instead of stringing me along and having sex with me. I thought we were doing ok, so I feel betrayed and used. He didn’t seem to care. He had nothing to say. At the end of the convo He said can we be friends, but I said no! I hung up and never called him back again. I deleted and blocked him on all social networking sites and I deleted his number,
Did he ever care about me? I’m still hurt, but I’ve been on 5 dates so far and I’m moving on with my life. Im not trying to rebound, but I just want to move on with life. I was celibate for 2 years before sleeping with this guy… I don’t ever have sex that fast, but I trusted him….. I made a mistake. I thought he was different.
I need some input and clarity.
Please give me your honest opinion.
What do you think I did wrong? I'm 32, and im too old to still be making mistakes. I need help choosing men.
I’ve been crying all day.