We have been together for two years now. He used to be crazy about sex, he would do it just about anywhere as long as it was private, he hardly said no. He always wanted to kiss me and touch me, and he talked about it and sexted me almost every night. Then, something changed. Now he will only make out with me when we're completely alone, he won't show any PDA, he will only accept hand jobs and asks for blow jobs, he hardly fingers me or eats me out, and sex is absolutely out of the question, he will not have sex under any circumstance. He says he's afraid of me getting pregnant, but we use condoms and I have offered to go on birth control as well (still using condoms). He still said no. This is kind of raising red flags in my head because it's super unlikely that I'll get pregnant with two birth controls and having access to plan b. He hasn't really shown much intimacy lately and we bicker a lot. I really feel like he hates me now but when I ask he says he loves me and he's just changed and matured. We don't live together, but he masturbates frequently too and I refuse to masturbate, it just doesn't arouse me at all, I actually hate it, so I feel like his needs are being met and mine aren't. He masturbates, gets hand jobs and blow jobs, and I'll get fingered or eaten out or both probably once or twice a month. Is it wrong that I'm so upset? I feel like he's lying and there's something more but he swears it's nothing more. I feel he's being irrational, but I don't want to force him to do anything he doesn't want to do. We haven't had real sex (fully naked, long lasting) sex in over a year. We have had sex (quickly, some clothes still on, he pulls out within five minutes without cumming and finishes himself or asks me to do it) maybe two or three times. Sorry if this is TMI but I just don't know what to do. I feel ugly and unwanted and this sex thing is stressing me out. I feel like he's lying to me and that he doesn't want me anymore, but he swears it's not like that, and he's brutally honest and blunt. I don't want to break up with him because of this but it's driving me crazy. I just can't get horny anymore without knowing that there's a possibility of sex, being naked together doesn't arouse me at all. I get horny when I think about sex then get disappointed when I realize we probably won't have it for a few more years until we're stable enough to handle a child.