Hello, I' ve never used a forum before, but don't want to discuss this with anyone I know. My husband has had a low sex drive since right after we moved in together (a few months after dating) He was interested when we were dating, but now that we're married with 3 kids (1 his step-daughter) he never initiates it, and turns me down most of the time (except maybe once every 1-2 wks). He says he's always too tired. He even went to strip clubs a few times while we weren't dating (which he is not interested in anymore due to his devotion to me). So, somehow he has lost his drive. He just got his testosterone checked, and it was 262. He is 30 and I am 32. He's in PA school and says that that is low for his age(normal for a 50-60 yr old) and is going back to the Dr. for further testing. He says it's not me, but I can't help but feel very rejected. He thinks it's a medical reason or just stress (from full time school/money/kids). I tell him that everyone is stressed, and that he would make time for it if he loved me and was attracted to me. When he's mad from me complaining he tells me it's my attitude, but then takes it back the next day. I only have an attitude when he rejects me. I am not unattractive to others. I am craving sexual intimacy. He says he has no desire for anyone else. I have researched the reasons for low testosterone, but can't find enough info. My question is: if it's not a medical problem for low testosterone, could it be that I somehow turned him off during our marriage, and he's no longer attracted to me? He says he is, and he's not gay, but wouldn't he want to have sex if he was attracted to me? After I first told him I loved him, he told me he wasn't sure. Then he told me he didn't love me and that there were no fireworks. (Although we never lacked sparks and had sex the first night we met (he was my friend's roomate). He said he needed time I said no and broke up with him. He came back and said he loved me and didn't mean anything he said, and was just scared. He is very affectionate and says I love you all of the time now. But with his lack of desire for me, I can't help but keep reverting back to what he said in the beginning. Maybe it was true. He says if that was true, he wouldn't be with me. I am not self-absorbed, but we are a young attractive couple who no one would believe are having sexual issues. Sorry about the length. I've just never talked to anyone about it.
Thank you