We don't judge here, and you shouldn't hate yourself.
First, fordyce spots don't pop, so stop trying to make it pop. If it were herpes, it would pop. Fordyce spots are oil glands, and they are normal and we all have them. We need them.
Second, herpes symptoms wouldn't appear until at least 2 days, probably longer. Anything you see prior to that won't be herpes.
This sounds like a sore you gave yourself by messing with it.
It's also definitely not syphilis - that sore wouldn't appear for at least 3 weeks.
Listen, you got a blow job, sort of, from a prostitute. This forum is full of people who've done the same thing. Your life isn't ruined. Even if you got herpes your life wouldn't be ruined, I promise, but this isn't herpes.
Leave it alone, except to wash it with a gentle soap and water. Keep it dry. Don't squeeze it, don't touch it. Your hands have bacteria on them that could cause an infection.
It also sounds like anxiety is an issue for you. If it is, consider counseling and talking to your doctor about it. Your reaction to this is out of proportion to the risk involved. I say that with compassion. You deserve to have peace.
Genital focused anxiety has alot to answer for!
Your first issue... You got received oral sex. yay! Sorry you didn't enjoy it. Are there risks? Yeah sure but a very small percentage will get an STI this way due to many biological factors. The longer the oral lasts the more risk you have. Thats common sense. From this encounter I would not worry.
From another point of view, sex workers jobs are just that.... sex! If word gets about that they have anything then it would not be good for business.
Fordyce spots are VERY common and should not be popped. Due to the genital focused anxiety, you will be checking it more and making a mental note of EVERY feeling which is a normal feeling and worrying about it. Try to relax!
Does herpes hurt the whole time it heals? The open sore I might have created doesn't hurt and it's trying to scab. It had a scab last night but I woke up today and it's like half gone. Could a sleeping erection pull the scab off? As far as i know this hasn't nessicarily oozed. I havent had any tingling, itching, and the pain is all gone after a bit of not really messing with it. I put a little hand sanitizer on it to disinfect and dry it out and it wasnt really painful. Is that a good sign that this isn't a herpes infection?
I'm approaching the 6 week mark soon, and I plan on getting tested for everything because my anxiety will continue to plague me if I dont. How reliable will the hsv 1 and 2 [herpeselect Igg] be at 6 weeks? 12 is conclusive but dont the vast majority of people have antibodies by 6 weeks? I'm sorry to bother you nice people again, I'm just so sick of the constant anxiety this has caused. And I want to feel relief.
Hi, not trying to bother you awesome people just wanted to post an update. I've been working with a councilor who is helping me with my anxiety. We came to the point where I have acknowledged my low risk and have moved on from stds of no concern. We decided that I should have a 6 week test and a 12 week test for hsv1 only since its causing me the most panic. My 6 week result was negative. I know that by 6 weeks it's about 70% accurate. But adding the low risk nature of the exposure, with my atypical symptoms that you all believe isn't herpetic. I'm feeling lighter and I feel like I can make it to the 12 week test with confidence.