Thank you very much for everybody who responsed.
Hello. I'm not the usual person to comment on questions here, and I'm sure they will answer, too. I'm sure you do not have any STDs, but I will let them talk about that. I'm replying because the way you spoke about your manliness really affected me. I can feel your inner pain and turmoil about this in your words. First off, those experiences you had as a young teen have nothing to do with manliness or lack of manliness. They aren't connected. It's a false cultural norm. I know plenty of very gay men who are incredibly manly. I'm replying to see if I can challenge you to reconsider your feelings about being a man and those experiences. Life is seldom black and white and many things fall on a continuum. Where they are not 100% one thing or the other. They are a mix of two or more things. Our sexualities can be like that. Some are many are straight while some are gay and other are bisexual and everything in between. I believe the idea is summed up in the Kinsey Scale of you want to Google it.
Anyway, there is nothing wrong with your manliness or your sexuality. You have judged this negatively when you're not supposed to judge it at all. You don't need to think about it further or tell any women in the future if you don't want to. But please, let go of the judgment you feel and have expressed. It's not serving you.
My best wishes to you.
And also, is it OK to donate blood in my situation? Thanks.
I forgot to mention that I took HBsAg, Anti-HBs, Anti-HCV and Anti-HIV tests 1 year ago. And when he ejaculated to my anus he rubbed and insterted his penis in my anus before he ejaculated.