he was my first because i think we are going to have a future i just dont understand how my vagina could be loose if ive only did it twice
There should be several exercises you can do for healthier sexual flow - as Dalubaba here advised me. However, this kind of promiscuity isn't healthy. Think of the diseases you might spread/catch and think about what your partner might think of you when and if you do decide to get married. You should abstain from intercourse outside of marriage because these special feelings you have should only be shared with someone you can commit the rest of your life to. Someone who will be willing to work with you through all your problems. Do you want your husband to think you're loose and used? I don't think so. Take this as a sign from the Almighty in the heavens above and try your best to remain chaste. Best of luck to you.
Do no feel ashamed.
The vagina is a flexible canal of tissue that can shrink, and indeed inflate or appear wider under many circumstances.
I certainly wouldn't get worried about this. Try using some lubricants if you are feeling 'dry'. I assume this hasn't always happened?
On another note, please ensure you using some kind of protection if this is an ex and of course - with anyone whom you do not know their sexual history
Hope this helps