This is super TMI and very embarrassing, and I am sure this is basic knowledge that I should be aware of. My boyfriend and I have been sexually active lately, but it has mostly been online type of stuff or giving each other PERSONAL items- iykyk. He had given me his underwear that had his cum on it in a Ziplock bag, and although it had been in that bag for a few days, I am worried. I had used it, still in the bag, and when I had realized what I had done I got extremely paranoid and scared. I am too scared to even touch myself or to look at my own body. Lately I have been getting bloated and I am so scared. I just got my period and its lasted a week instead of the usual 4-5 days. I am hungrier than usual and lost some weight (maybe this is due to me being paranoid). I am trying to convince myself that I am okay i mean - sperm doesnt live on clothing until it is dried up, it was still in the ziplock bag, and I had a pair of shorts on. I guess I just need reassurance or advice on what to do :(. I hate that I felt the way I did and now I am starting to feel more ashamed of myself everytime I think of that night. The other day we were exchanging pictures and I had a full on anxiety attack because I noticed my stomach. I am really hoping I am just bloated and paranoid. Can someone please help me? what do I do after this? Im not sure if I should ask my doctor, I really dont want them telling my parents :(
btw- i am 17. I was supposed to take a sex ed class but because of covid, the class got cancelled before the actual course could even begin. I feel ashamed for not knowing basic things and hope I can learn more about my body and sex through this website so I can keep myself and my body safe