nodules must still be growing

[dart frog]

If swollowing and breathing wasnt enough of a problem...lets not forget hair falling out.....I now have problems turning my head left and right. I can turn it further to the left but to the right is getting bad. 2 of the bigger nodules are on the right side.......sigh

Hubby said when I turn my head right he sees a bigger "bulge".

Great! This is just great! I'm a basket case as it is and things just keep going worse. My parents dont think I should try making the trip at all. Which brought me to tears. We are suppose to stay at the campground and now hubby says I cant do that I have to stay at my parents house.....yeah the ones who dont want me making the trip in the first place!!

sorry...it just seems like everything is getting to me today.Please keep your fingers crossed I make it to july 9th!!

Rhonda

[dart frog]

I talked to my parents today and we all agreed I would be better staying at their house then at the campground. I agreed to that just to try to smooth things over and make everyone more comfortable ( I always was a problem child ).

I need to stop worrying about how I might feel next week instead focus on one day at a time.

Thanks for letting me vent!!

[At The End of My Rope]

Rhonda you have to follow your heart, you are the only one that truly knows if you can handle the trip. Your mom is right put it in the hands of God and he will guide you to make the right decision. If, this is one dream you have follow it go be with your family this is something that really might help you through see your family enjoy your family, and everything else will fall in place. I know I was in the same boat as you the week of June 5th I had mine TT and my nephew graduation was on June 9th and everyone told me I could not sit outside and on on on, let me tell you I went to that graduation I had a few problems but no one knew but me and i know my body better than anyone and I knew when it had reached the limit and that was not until late afternoon and I asked my husband to take us home and we left but I was there for the most important part and than was the actual graduation. So follow your heart you know your body and what it can handle..
I wish you all the luck!!!!

God Bless,
Take Care,
Pam

[dart frog]

Dr said I could go.Of course she said that last month. She thought they "new" breathing problems were more to do with anxiety. I get the feeling shes begining to think Im totally nuts...or just freaking out big time!
Your questions are the things that are making everyone nervous about this dumb trip. Round trip is 1900 miles. My parents are in the middle of nowhere!! They drive 45 minutes to get groceries!! I keep telling everyone that we have 3 nurses in the family that they will be there....that outta make them feel a little better. Nobody thought that was funny.
I just dont know what to do anymore. Hubby and the kids are SO excited about going! My brother,sister and I have been working on this party for my parents for about 6 months. If we dont go because I dont THINK I can make it then I'll be letting everyone down.....maybe even for no reason.

Mom said I should trust it all to God and Im really trying but....gosh I AM one stubborn woman!! :-)

Rhonda