I went through the same thing. Deathly afraid to take that pill. Drove everyone (and myself) CRAZY. I take PTU instead of Methi, but I fought it tooth and nail until some very dear people on this forum helped me. The only side effect I had was mild nausea for a day or three, and then, nothing. It's nine days total for me today, and I am perfectly fine. You ARE panicking - just like I did. Relax..... it's the best thing for you. Did you have symptoms of Hyper?? I didn't, which made it that much harder to get that pill down my throat, but my blood tests say Hyper. Like someone told me, don't be afraid of the medicine, be afraid of what can happen to you if you DON'T take it. You have three choices: RAI Ablation, Surgery, or the one that's in your medicine chest.
I hope you can get past the side effects, because the Methimazole worked great for me. After about 3 weeks on it, I felt great - had my energy back, the racing, pounding heartbeat and shaking were gone, and things were looking great. Then . . . I developed a side effect were everything I ate tasted horribly bitter and so awful I couldn't eat more than a few bites of anything. So I had to change to PTU and eventually that went away. The PTU doesn't work as well for me, but at least it hasn't given me the problem of the change of taste. Now that I've had RAI, I'm looking forward to not having to take the PTU at all.
Hang in there and try to give the med a chance.
I take 40 mg of Tapazol (methimazole) daily. That's the same dosage I started with a couple years ago before the doc started lowering it. It seemed to help the first time around--put most of the symptoms to sleep and kept the heart quiet. The only bad part for me was I felt much colder than usual when cold weather came around.
This time, however, it doesn't seem to be helping much. Combined with all the other drugs I'm taking, it almost seems to be making me depressed more than usual. Doesn't seem to be helping the heart as much either. The doc acts like she wants to just do surgery instead of the RAI.
I didnt have too many side affect of meth. and they went away quickly..Ive been on mine about 2 and a half weeks. . still have symptoms of hyper but not as bad...I take 10 mg twice a day.
Hang in there and take those meds
I agree with everyone, the first month was a big adjustment and then had some dosage changing the next six months- but the side effects go away. I only take my methim in the morning with coffee- got nausous if I tried to take anything else (flaxseed oil) at the same time and that helped. So if you have other meds/vitamins/etc take them at night or visa versa.