Several years ago I fell in love with a man who has a TBI. It was very complicated because I was young, he was living with his parents, and needs round the clock care. To further complicate the issue, he's non verbal and uses a computer device and some hand signals and sounds to communicate. I get him, I love him, and I wanted him. The problem was that I was young and inexperienced. His parents would leave us alone, but I was not savvy or bold enough to take our relationship to the next level (physically). Though I spent a lot of time with the family, we never had open communication about the relationship. It was sort of assumed that we were more than friends, but his mom nor dad ever pulled me aside to discuss. I think we both got frustrated, he started to pressure me, and I moved on. Our paths occasionally crossed, but the relationship between me and the family fizzled. I will never know if they realized that he pushed me away and that I was too immature to ask about the next steps or if they think I was a super ***** for leaving the picture and moving on.
Many years later, I cannot get him out of my head. I've had two serious relationships, but none compare to the absolute love and adoration I have for him. Now that I am almost 8 years older, have had physical relationships, and feel confident in my ability to "go there", I really want to give things a try. I'm just not sure how to do it. How to broach that with his parents- with whom I would have to coordinate with because this guy is not able to.
I'm not sure I would be able to commit to the care required long term with a serious relationship/possibly marriage, and who knows where things would go, but I really want to give it another shot.
So much time has passed, he may be "over' me, but I don't think he is. I'd love to hear a mom's perspective on this because I don't want to bring up feelings only for the possibility of things not working out and crushing him. I don't want to enter and leave his life again. At the same time, I don't know if it would be worth it- for him to have as normal of a relationship as possible, for him to have sex, to know true love. I'm just so confused. My friends think i'm crazy for wanting him- they don't understand why I wouldn't want someone not disabled. I can't explain the feelings I have for him, I just know they're real.
Can parents weigh in on this, please? we are both in our 30s now. I'm pretty sure he's never had another relationship.