I'm 21 years old, 5'5" and 133lbs. Up until about the last year I never really cared about how much I weighed, though when people mentioned they thought I was thin it made me really happy. About 2 years ago I went from 130lbs to 152lbs. I decided to lose weight to become healthier. After about a year I managed to get down to 121lbs. Through out the weight loss I had become a bit obsessed with the scale. (Weighing myself twice a day). Here I am three months later and I weigh 133lbs. I can't stand it! I count my calorie intake every day (comes out to about 700 calories absorbed daily after exercising). I know should eat more, but I'm just not hungry. The thought of gaining more weight upsets me, as does not losing it. I can eat in public, but if someone else is with me and doesn't want to eat with me, I find that it doesn't matter how hungry I was, my appetite disappears. Instead of being happy when people call me thin, it now upsets me, I argue with them, and just wish they'd shut up. I feel so self conscious when my boyfriend looks at my body (even at 121lbs, I'm the biggest person he's been with) and I know he'd prefer me to be back at 121lbs. I want to lose weight, but I don't want to "starve" myself doing so.
So do I have an eating disorder? If so how do I stop? And why am I not losing weight yet? I've been at this calorie intake now for 2 weeks.