Terrified about please potential risk please help

[Garrysheetmetal]

8 weeks ago I was working and a peice of sheet metal fell and hit my penis very painful and it managed to cut my penis a bit through my work pants. Here’s where it goes side ways for me 2 days later I had protected anal sex with a male I was a top. And as soon as I left the fear has come and it hasent left I’ve have barley been eating and sleeping.
My question is what are my risks associated with this with the potential of his anal fluids getting into my cut under the condom and that fluid was not exspoded to any light or air. I’ve seen the reply’s on here about it swing once it hits air and light etc but what if there was fluid that had got into the condom deep in his anus which was not expanded to those elements. I hope somebody on here understands what I’m asking . I know your thinking why don’t I ask him and I have and he said he was clean but people lie. Also I’ve asked about testing and since it was my only time they told me they wouldn’t test as it was a waste of resources . Somebody plz help. Oh and my cut on penis had kinda scabbed over but hours before I must of rubbed in inside of my pants and opened it up again but there was no blood just kinda raw wound.
Any help would help plz I’m loosing my self and I’m not sure what’s next for me

[CurfewX]

No, no one has ever been infected via a wound on the penis when the penis was covered with a condom.  You are definitely not the first person to have sex with a minor wound, either.  It would have to be an open, actively bleeding wound that required medical attention in order to be a risk, in which case there's no way you would be having sex.  

Condoms WORK at protecting people from HIV.  You had no risk and there is absolutely no reason to test.

[Garrysheetmetal]

Oh wow I’ll try and make this my last question so I don’t take up to much of your time. So theoretically even if fluids got under the condom into the wound there’s still a chance no infection would occur ? Unless there’s a lot of blood etc from both parties. May I ask why is there a risk inside of the penis of infection ? Is it because the urethra is a different kind of skin?
And also I’m in Canada here so hiv treatment is free 100% so if he was infected and he knew there’s a chance he was on treatment . Anyways thanks so much for taking the time to reply ! I may need other help with my fear because it is becoming very dangerous for my self

[CurfewX]

Still no chance, and there would have to be so much blood that nobody is thinking about sex.  The urethra is a mucous membrane, and that's where HIV enters.  HIV is not easy to contract, at all.  

You really have absolutely nothing to worry about and no reason to test.  Regarding other infections, doubtful, but this forum only focuses on HIV.  

If you find yourself overthinking HIV, it really would be beneficial to see a counselor, so that you can relax and enjoy your life.  We can't act as an anxiety support group, and since you know that the only sexual risk for HIV is unprotected anal or vaginal intercourse, there's not a lot more info we can offer.

[Garrysheetmetal]

Thanks I understand. I just can’t belief this has affected me in this way . I will try and put this past me thanks very much

[Garrysheetmetal]

Sorry last question I mean it this time. And I’m hoping this will help me put google away and the web searching. But is it true the anal fluid carries the highest viral load ? I know you’ve answered my question and I don’t want to be kicked off here . But page after page says anal fluid carries the greatest risk and I’m hoping you have some knowledge on this last question
Thnaks

[laxus2012]

it doesn't matter because you were already told you have no risk since you wore a condom during intercourse.  no matter of i answered that question or not, you're not at risk. stop searching, seek help for your anxiety.

[AnxiousNoMore]

You can get e Coli from a burger, but you don't test for that after every meal, so it is time to stop studying HIV all day long since you couldn't even catch it.

[Garrysheetmetal]

Very true never put it into my mind like that before. Although statistically men whom have sex with men are at a far greater risk then the rest of the population. It was my only experience and my last. Here in Canada since 1988 , 80 thousand people have been affected which means in a city my size 6 in every 100k are infected which some how scares the heck out of me. But I find here the answers to be far more to the point and work less on theoretical risk. For the 8 weeks I’ve been living in this fear I’ve gained some much facts like I’ve just stated but less of the no it not possible or yes it is very possible answers. To the above comment I was not trying to over ride your answer but merely trying to get answers to a question I’ve been trying to look up. In 8 weeks you two have been the only people who have taken the time to engage with me and not pushed me to the side like a was some nut bag whom had nothing better to then cry him self to sleep. And sucks when out reach workers here in my city tell me I’m waistline there time.
So if your goal on here is to ease people’s mind or to help in any way please know you have accomplished that goal and I’m grateful

[laxus2012]

I'm glad you can stop worrying and carry on living your life.

[Garrysheetmetal]

Hey guys so I lost my job today after 10 years ! I’ve been worrying so much I’ve been missing work! I know it annoys you guys to answers questions that you feel you have answered already so I didn’t want to msg on here . My life has been spinning out of control I know I’ve read your answers and believe me I’ve never had mental problems before but this has consumed my entire life ! Out of ideas ! I realize I have lost control of this. Just can’t wrapped my head around it especially since everybody in my town at the clinics say there was a risk ! Oh well

[AnxiousNoMore]

See a therapist because your anxiety over a non-health risk is a mental health problem. You have no medical training so it is unrealistic for you to have so much confidence in your made up theory that you are the only person in 40 years of HIV history to get HIV from that cut.

[AnxiousNoMore]

This forum can't provide the one on one that you need so until you see a professional you will continue to waste your life in mental pain worrying about your science fiction.

[laxus2012]

unfortunately we can no longer help you.  none of this is HIV related like we said, we've also advised you to seek mental help which you didn't,  and no you do not have a job.  for absolutely no reason. you didn't listen about the zero risk, or at least getting mental help. it's unfortunate you lost your job, but we are here to give advice that you did not follow. at this point I do not think there is any more help we can provide to you that has not already been mentioned.  good luck with your future.

[Garrysheetmetal]

Yes just actually got off the phone with my boss and he wants me back and has given me three weeks mental health time off ! And that the three weeks mark I will go and get tested to maybe put my mind at ease ! And put this behind me . I’ve harassed the person I had the act with to the point of concern ! They have told me I have nothing to worry about time and time again and now have blocked me and I get it ,it got out of hand . I hope so other people read this and realize this is not the route they want to take.
It can consume you make you feel ill and ruin your life .
Anxiousnomore thanks for taking the time time to reply I really don’t know how you find the time or even care about thousands of people you will never meet. Compared to some of the other people on here I’ve seen ,you have the humanity on here instead of saying (move on ) no risk ! It’s like saying your stupid stupid you had no risk you moron .
Thanks take care

[Garrysheetmetal]

Laxus2012 I get it ! Obviously this is not the person I want to be ! And it hasent been exactly easy to go see my doctor whom I’ve known my life and walk in and say oh yeah I had sex with a man, been straight my whole life oh yeah and by the way it’s driven me close to insanity and I need some mental diasablity help thanks !! See you my next check up say hi to my mom when you see her again!
Anyways I get it I will no longer post on here again and close my account.
Ps I’m not offended you also do great work

[AnxiousNoMore]

I would see the therapist first instead of testing. You might not believe the test and just end up further behind in your recovery. Or read a library book about this fear of disease, because the issue is simple so in 3 weeks you might be able to self cure.

[Garrysheetmetal]

I will beat this and when it’s in my past I will simply post a thumbs up !
Anxiousnomore thanks for seeing me as a person although you’ve only seen words and letters behind this has been a real man in a real dark place . To to crawl out
Thanks take care forever great full

[Kirstie_MHModerator]

We are happy to hear that you are getting some mental health assistance and hope you will benefit from it.  Since this forum is for HIV concerns only, rather than anxiety, and you do not have an HIV concern, we're going to close this thread.

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