BMC:
So sorry to hear about you sister. It is aweful. Parents should have to bury their children. How aweful, to be there when that child comes into this world, and then like your parents, be there when they leave. It breaks my heart to think of my mom "holding my sister" while she was already gone... and to know dad was crying over my sister, feeling that she was already cold.
Some may think: "Dont focus on those things", but I can't help it. Thanks very much BMC for sharing. It does help.
GLO: You are so very kind. Every step of the way during this WD thing I have thought of my sister and especially my parents, children. How they would feel if this happened again to them. Losing another child.
Basically, drug abuse is a selfish thing. (my opinion). I told my brother and little sister, that they better be careful, use their seatbelt, etc etc... (they dont have abuse issues), but this loss in the family has been so hard that I tell them: "I don't wanna do this ever again... or at least NOT for a long time!" (bury a sibling).
Thanks for all of your support.
Wow. Your strength is amazing. Not only have you had the will to get through the WDs, but deal with that at the same time.
My heart goes out to you for your loss and you are someone I can look up to for strength when I am feeling weak.
You should be very proud of yourself, don't look back, look forward as that is all we can affect in life. You are doing GREAT!!!!!
I can relate and feel for you. Almost three years ago my older sister passed away. She was 31. We knew she had a drug problem but with her living in california the rest of us in IL our hands were somewhat tied. Five months prior to her death I talked to my dad about it and he sat her down and talked to her. Of course she said she didn't have a problem. I was at my mom's house when she recieved a call from the hospital. She was on life support and that was the only thing keeping her alive. All of her organs had shut down. My mom and dad flew out there right away to see her for the last time. My mom and dad hadn't talked for over 6 years because of their divorce. That was the first time in 6 years they even saw each other. They had to make the decision to take her off of life support. They sat there and watched her pass. It has been extremely difficult on our family. My mom and dad are taking it the worse. I have 2 younger sisters also. A day doesn't go by without thinking about her. I just thought I'd share my story because there a many people everyday that pass away from drug abuse. We all need to realize how it effects so many more people than just ourselves.
I cannot thank all of you enough.
I had a great day yesterday, but for some reason, a really terrible night last night. I am on day 6. Maybe it is one last kick in the pants from getting off the Vic or maybe telling that experience just brought all the "stuff" to the surface.
I am glad I did, though.
Ya'll are incredibly kind. Yes, I think she would be proud of me. She always was no matter what.
I wonder if she posted in some forum like I am doing before she died. I told mom last night that we could find out my looking through her harddrive on her PC - (my brother in law does that stuff). If she did post somewhere, I think her "friends online" should know.
Thanks again for all the love.
I am so very sorry! I had no idea this happened. Thank you for sharing your story with us. I hope you family finds peace soon and you will be in my prayers
Words just can't describe how sorry I am for your loss. I have 2 sister's and we are very close and all live within 5 minutes of each other. I can't even imagine losing one of them. You should be so proud of yourself for being so strong at such a difficult time. My thoughts are with you. Mary
I'm sitting here with tears streaming down my face. Oh sweetie, I am so sorry for your loss. I want to just give you a great big hug.
I can't think of a whole lot to say, 'cause that choked me up so much, but thank you so much for sharing such a personal tragedy, because I know it will probably save someone who reads it.
~my deepest condolences to you and your Family.
I had no idea.. we talked so much too, I thought you would have told me that..But it must be hard.. I so sorry for your loss, and am so very happy you are getting and staying clean as well! She would be very proud of you to know you quit!
I had my favorite relative my unlce pass away at age 32 from a pain pill overdose and he was trying to get me back on track at the time as well. mind you I was only 16 yrs old.. I don't mean to take away from your story or anything, but I felt the urge to share my loss with you as well.. This story has made me very sad in so many ways, and very happy for you in others!
I AM PROUD OF YOU
YOU ARE CLEAN
YOU WILL CONTINUE TO DO THIS ONE DAY AT A TIME
You are a doll. Thanks so much...
wow, girl you done good hun. this is a story that has to be shared, i am so glad you did this and i know this will help someone....and you too. what a tragedy at such a young age, again my sincere condolences to you and your family, i cant fathom the pain.
i hope you get some form of release/relief from sharing this with everyone here.
and saving yourself for you and your family in the process...i am so very proud of you! take care of yourself, extra pampering after this kind of post...XO!!