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[Nina0119]

um. i am 17 years old and..i have had very bad experiences with males. i was molested by an older family member from 11 to 14 years old. when i tried to tell my family no one would believe me and i just feel really bad. i know im not making it up but no one else except my close friends believe me. when i was 8 i got raped in my backyard by two boys that lived down the street, they came down to "play" and pinned me in the dirt...as one raped me the other would hold me down and beat on me then they would switch they told me they did this because i was "black and ugly"..also, last year in June i went to a hotel party, when i arrived there were only 3 girls and like 15 dudes. as the night went one i had a few drinks and layed in the bed. one boy tried to get in the bed with me and when i pushed him away he got angry and got on top of me, i was putting up a fight so he had another boy hold me down while he went inside of me and did what he wanted. after he was finish another boy did it, then another, then another until they were all satisfied. i left oout limping and crying. i didnt call the police because i was embarrassed and i knew i wasnt supposed to be there.....i just need some advice on how to cope with all of this

[bbm1188]

I have a friend who has repeatedly been through similar to What you have. She went through it though through out her adult life. Im so sorry that this has happened to you. First for What youve been through you need counseling, please if your in school still seek the guidance counselor ans see What  she can do. I think it be Good to join a support group to. Talking about it can help and you need support more importantly. I want you to try really hard to be aware of your surroundings, dont trust the guy who gives you a drink at a party ever, pay very close attention to who you surround yourself with, observe very closely. If something doesnt feel right leave.  I think you has clues in the past but didnt trust your instincts. always go with your gut. You do not have to be the victum of these attacks, be strong, speak out against your attackers. They count on you being to ashamed to speak up, dont give them that satisfaction, shame them by calling the police cause no matter how small you feel you are, you can make such a difference by pressing charges and preventing them from doing this to someone else. I think since your new to trusting your instincts you should just be friends with girls, establish a healthy friend group if you dont have one. Thats all the advice I have. Its Good your reaching out just remember your going to need alot of time to heal from this. But your going to come out one day a survivor not a victim. I wish you luck and ill be praying for you.

[samiam403]

CALL ON JESUS.HE IS THE ONLY ONE WHO CAN TRULY HELP.

[babysheets828]

Sorry you're going through all this, you do need to go to the police, maybe they can get you away from your family too, I know such a big change sounds scary but you deserve so much better.
This is continued from uptop my phone is just messed up

[babysheets828]

Wow life360 it is in no way shape or form HER "lifestyle" that excuses these pathetic peices of you know what

And nina0119 i am so

[allmymarbles]

Because you have never had a normal life, with a normal family, it is difficult for you to adjust to something that is unfamiliar to you. You need a good counselor, and you could use the aid of a wise, older woman, as well. Your environment is a disaster in terms of improving your situation and it is possible that your name has been passed around as a person to abuse.

You need counseling and you need help to move away. Staying where you are invites a repetition of the abuse that is being heaped upon you. There is a different life out there. You need help in finding it. I truly sympathize and wish I could help you personally.

[sheryl0]

You have to recognize that things like this does not only happen to you. There are many women who go through what you have gone through and worse and some become very successful. We will never truly understand why certain things happen, but fact is it happened and you have to learn how to take it and continue to live your life. Just be careful of who you hang with, people, places and things at all times. You know now not to lay down in a house full of guys and you can tell someone else who might consider it. Its lucky that you were able to walk out of that situation alive and well. Some women are severely beaten coming from that, some are taken and sold to a man a hundred miles from there. You have to be grateful for what you do have and seek counseling before you make any rash decisions .. We all have a story, but it won't stop you from being all you can if you let it

[Nina0119]

i dont really have a family. they dont care what i do or who im with. i dont usually go out to parties or stuff like that.....also, i dont understand why stuff like this happens to me, im not a hoe or anything and i dont wear revealing  understand

[sheryl0]

Ok, this is repetitive and needs to stop. You should get the police involved because I go to work and pay taxes for the government to help you handle situations like this. I can imagine you are probably feeling insecure but you don't deserve to be treated like that under no circumstances. Rape is a crime no matter.who does it and when. The first and best thing to do is to stop feeling sorry for yourself and tell yourself that you will not always have to be subject to this kind of treatment. Spend some time alone finding yourself, setting.goals and reevaluating your situation. What's the best choice for you? Well the best one immediately is to recognize your mistakes especially on the last venture and take responsibility for some of your own actions. If you go to a party where there are more girls than guys, that is a warning sign. The same rule applies to anything else, follow your instincts, especially if you are somewhere you never been before. From your past, I would encourage you to speak with your doctor, that way you will be able to be referred to counselor who can help you express yourself better and cope with your past. This can all be done in private if you go through your doctor bc it wasn't right. Its also good to begin to move forward by leaving past behind and forgiving those who hurt you. It takes time, but its better to f forgive than to hold it all in for the rest of your life. That can hurt any long term relationships you develop. You have to regain your confidence in yourself and recognize you are beautiful no matter what and you don't need anyone else to confirm that.. I handle most things with prayer, so I will definitely be praying for you. Stay encouraged.

[allmymarbles]

There appears to be no oversight in your family. Don't your parents set rules for dating and staying out late? Don't you bring your friends home to meet your family? I think there is a lot missing from your story. Please tell us more about your family situation.

[Life360_Dave]

Hi Nina and really sorry what you have experienced. Do you have any idea why this is happening to you so much. Im asking this because maybe you need to change some of your lifestyle habits to avoid this in the future. Its sounds just terrible that your going through this.