Reporting abusers

[evergreen26]

I have started the ball rolling on reporting my dad for abusing me as a child but I am having conflicting feelings about it. I don't want to break his heart as my inner child still loves him unconditionally and I know he was never a well person. I just don't want him to do it to someone else but at the same time I think he was in love with me though he did groom me heavily so I don't know. I just know that my inner child doesn't want to upset him. The adult me suffers every single day though and it's daily torment to live with. I hate these conflicting feelings and emotions I just feel so sorry for him. I don't know how I am supposed to feel.

[Jinx_777]

again, this is something that you can figure out while getting help, as i suggested in your other post.
i did not report my parents.  could have, but i don't think it would have made me feel any better.  what is done, is done.  i cannot change it and my mom sitting in jail would not make me feel any better.  
i don't know how old you are, but if it was a long time ago, it is very hard to do anything about it now.  you may get hurt more in the process.  your family will take sides and your life will be worse than it is.
just telling a psychologist about the abuse i suffered as a child has put me on the outside of my family.  even though my brother and sisters know it to be true, they still feel the need to keep the 'secrets' and hate me for confronting my mom.  oh well.  just saying, talk to a psychiatrist about what you are feeling before you do anything.   don't want you to get hurt more than you are.  you are dealing with workplace bullying and really don't need to add more to  your plate at this time.  
a psychiatrist will tell you what can be done and if it is in your best interest.  

[allmymarbles]

there is no such thing as "supposed to feel," and that would be dishonest. Find out how you really feel and go on from there.