There are a lot of folks in your situation take a look at the differant forums, you can join a few for input, there are friends on MH . Can you tell us your story so others can learn and have input for you, if you dont want to be public you can PM (private Message ) anyone, I am assuming that your husband/partner is abusive to you, have you any children?there are a lot of frustrated people out there who take their frustrations out on others ,you could do with standing up to him, easy said than done I hear you say, but others have done just that, I am one.come back let us know how you are doing and know we care.