Started my addiction treatment THANK YOU TO ALL

[sarab7674]

To all my new friends who have been my lifeline, along with my mom, these past few days-

I went to one of the addiction programs today.  Met my suboxone dr. and one of the counselors that will be my group leader from here until I'm off the sub.

Dr. started me on Subutex for this week and next week we'll switch to suboxone.  He wanted me, ideally, since I had weaned some myself, to start on 4mg 3 times a day but wrote for 8 mg in case I needed more.  I also suffer from migraines and combined with the withdrawl symptoms and my crying for the last 5 days straight with today being the worse, I had a raging migraine.  So tried the 4mg and it didn't do much so took the other 1/2 and am now feeling human.  

The program requires that while I'm on the subutex then the suboxone that I HAVE to do 3, 3 hour group sessions every week.  If you can't come to one for some reason (work etc.) then you can make it up for a one on one session.  I'm not really looking forward to the group sessions, then again it will be freeing.  If I see someone I know due to the profession I have (such as referring pts to this exact program) then I'll face it and along with it let go of the guilt I felt everytime I told a patient the risks of what they were doing, etc. etc. and that they needed to do an intensive outpatient program, only to know that I was a hypocrite and all along abusing narcotics.

All of you have been so good to me, a stranger, from the second I joined and begged for help.  I know this road is going to be long and hard, and I'm going to need ya'll and hopefully I can be a success story and be here to help others.

Thank you all so much.  You are all in my thoughts and prayers.

S

[TJack]

I am so glad to see your post.  I have been thinking of you and praying you got your help yesterday.  How long did the dr. think he would have you on sub?
I think you will feel better today.   I also felt very normal on suboxone, no high or anything.  I just want to caution you to not let them taper you off too fast, that is where i got into trouble and was miserable for 2 weeks.  I too am in counseling with this sub program from Adapt.  It is one on one though.  I think the counseling is as important as the sub.  Let us know how you are. TJack

[nelly1313]

Hey I think it's great that you have found the Dr. that can help you down the path of recovery. Take care of yourself and keep posting. Good Luck with everything.

[kyjobr]

I've never been on subutex (dr started me sub right away) but I don't think you'll feel any different.  

[sarab7674]

Thank you guys.  Your help was such an important part to all this.  I go to my first group meeting on Wed., nervous about that but I'm telling myself how freeing it will be to let it all out.

One question:  How will the suboxone feel vs the subutex I'm on now (I'll start the suboxone next week).

Thanks!

[lurker]

I  am so happy for you - I was thinking about you today and hoping that the doc that you talked to yesterday was able to help you.  And it sounds like he's really a doc who wants people to have the skills they need to stay clean once they get off the suboxone.  I wish you all the best - keep posting and take care of yourself.

[kyjobr]

sounds like you've found a great sub program.  So many just give you the meds and let you fend for yourself. You've well on your way to a wonderful, fullfilling, clean life. Congrats!

[IBKleen]

Good for you hun. I hope you do well.

Jeep posting and let us know how you are doing.