The new girl is at it again ;) I was wondering if you all have jobs, and if so how has this affected your work?
I landed a great job almost 6 months ago. At the time I was doing well with tapering off. I had also just graduated with an Associate's Degree and just had surgery which helped with a lot of my pain issues (hence being able to start tapering off the pills). Life had done a complete 180 and I was on top of the world!
Then I started to relapse. I started to take pills at work. At first it appeared that this was helping my productivity, but now I see that it caused more harm than good. Of course they made me out of it and drowsy. I started making mistakes that I don't believe I would have made it if weren't for the pills. Oh and we can't forget how apathetic the little buggers make you...so not only was I messing up, but I didn't really give a rat's @$$ about it. The past few weeks have been really bad. I've taken a lot of leave because I've basically been depressed. I sunk really low before I told everyone the truth.
Now I'm trying to get clean again, but it is too late? I sure hope not. Any bad that comes from this is my own fault, and I'm just going to chalk it up to living and learning, but I really hope that I can turn things around and keep this wonderful job.