Help calming down

[lonote]

I woke up out of a dead sleep in a full blown anxiety attack. I can't catch my breath, tears running down my cheeks and don't even know what I'm crying for.Need someone to talk to. Is anyone awake?

[tzt2lady]

Lonote, I just saw this post.  How are you feeling now, hun?   Im so sorry I wasnt here when it was happening.   Did you have a dream?  

Hang in there and maybe tonight take a tylenol pm or something to help you sleep.  

hugs
tzt

[TimH2]

Our tolerance is so built up. I took five when I woke up in the morning and usually 5 at night. On a bad day it would be 15. Your doc should understand and have an alternative plan for controlling your pain. You are a good Mama, lol. I will talk to you later. I have to get to work as it is getting crazy here.

Tim

[mama_bear_4]

I tried that too...putting them in different containers...I get 240 a month and it didn't work at all.....just took them when I got a twinge of pain...I must metabolize the damn things reall fast...they wear off so fast...and my w/d's are short but wicked.....I am getting  more energy by the hour.....I cleaned like a maniac this morning just to move around and it really did help rather than wallowing on the couch all day.....I still have the cold sweats though which really suck...my 2 month old is sick and the poor little guy is miserable...thenkfully my 2 year old is behaving well today....God must have whispered to her to be a good girl for mama...LOL

[mama_bear_4]

You are a huge help in all of this!!!  I don't get the "buzz" that everyone talks about, but I am in pain 2 hours after taking 3 percs....I am so crippled some days that I basically have to give the kids the run of the house when I am off the percs....then I have a huge mess to deal with....I wake up in w/d every morning and take 4 and then wait for them to kick in beforeI can get off the couch and get the day going....They definitely help, but I hate havign to worry about running out..it's just not worth it....I have to find a better way to help the pain....I dont have the guts to tell doc and pharm yet.....I'm not at that point yet...I should though...

[TimH2]

My trick was to take my 90 pills and put them in 3 different vials. I figured that it would help me get a better handle on them. Guess what, it did not. If I have them I will eat them. I kept a mental count at all times in my head and was never wrong on the amount I had left. It was an obsession with me. I am having a rough day and expect this will go on for a bit. I do get spurts of energy and euphoria. I am hoping the good feelings will come more and more as the days pass by. Holler if you need me. :)

[TimH2]

I would do the same thing and pick them up. I am very honest about my addiction. The only thing I can suggest is out yourself to the pharmacy. I know that would be almost impossible to do. If you did that, I know you would seal the deal. I took as directed almost 2 yrs ago and in the last year was taking for the buzz and to keep the w/d's at bay. You are not weak at all and I think just the opposite. 24 hrs is nothing to sneeze at lol (dontcha hate the sneezing part) and you will have some tough days ahead. You are taking care of children with disorders and I can't imagine how hard that is for you. I admire you!! Please hang in there and do this for you. It is going to change your life for the better and in turn, it is going to change your family life. Focus on the brass ring and don't let the negative thoughts bring you down. I am praying and rooting for you Mama!!!

God Bless,
Tim

[mama_bear_4]

Thanks Tim! My w/d's are relatively short but super bad from hour 6-24, but get better from there....thats probably why I keep going back for more....I know myself though....I'll suck it up but take them as soon as they're available again...I am very weak mentally and they give me soooooo much energy to keep up w/ the kids and the house....my 8 year old is Autistic and my 6 year old has a metabolic disorder...lots of counting protein and formula and meds....I am in so much pain when I don't have the Perc's and keep telling myself I wil take them as directed...but I never do....

[TimH2]

You sound like you are doing so well in the w/d phase. Keep up the good work and I am rooting for you!!!

Tim

[mama_bear_4]

ok...hour 34 and I don't feel like I want to die...which is weird...still sweaty and a little shaky but my stomach is much calmer and I actually took a 2 hour nap with no twitchy arms which is the major problem I get with w/d's....hopefully it will stay that way tonite so I can really sleep....hope everyone else is hanging in there too...

[TimH2]

grrrrrr, I just wrote you a post and hit the wrong button. It sounds like you might have a bug and your body is telling you to rest. You should take care of yourself and rest. Think of your son and how great it is going to be when you see him. Hold that thought in your mind. Pamper yourself today and relax. I am thinking of you. :)

[mama_bear_4]

Thanks so much Cathy....I wish I could sleep through this but I have 4 kids....2 have disabilities and my 2 month old has a miserable cold....I was origionally RX'd Percocet for massive back pain during preg. and then more after for te C-sec...then more for the infection i got from the C-sec....I was taking 15 5/325's at the peak and went throguh a months worth in a week and a half....sorry about the spelling...I am skaking like crazy! I have been throguh w/d before but only had to stick it out at 2 days without max....thuis is the longest I will have to go without and I REALLY don't want to get bck on this merry go round from hell....you guys are really great....been reading theseposts for about a month and I know it will help me end this nightmare...


MamaBear

[lonote]

Tim, I like your idea of music frim a better time, I can't take very deep breaths because of my athsma, Just taking regular breaths is a struggle for me today. And mama bear Say no thanks  please be strong, Its a visicous never ending circle. You too can beat this like  so many others, I
have no energy, sorry guys i'm going back to sleep. I can't handle feeling so poopy. I don't know whats come over me. Tim  know i'll be thinking of you today for you to get thru. I love ya!! Cathy

[mama_bear_4]

I was up half the night too....I'm 24hours in now and shaking and sweating...my stomach is going crazy. I'm new to the forum. I get a refll on the 17th but I want to sa no to it. Hopefully, with God's grace, I will be able to say no thanks.......this feels impossible taking car o the kids and feeling like this...


MamaBear

[TimH2]

Hi dear,

I am sorry you are going through that. I am also having anxiety attacks and depression. I know it is from the w/d's  Did you cut down on the sub?? I am here for you and sorry I was not on when this was happening. Do you do the deep breath exercises??  They really do help me and I must do them 10 times a day. Listening to music is helpful too! I like to listen to old songs that remind me of a different time, a time when I was not addicted. I was always a happy person and hope happiness will find me again. Keep thinking of seeing your son and picture it in your mind :)

Love to ya,
Tim

[lonote]

Thanks for your responce. I did finally end up going back down. You hang in there too, those damm w/d/s can't be around much longer,

[hurtinunit]

I'm awake  but dont want to be.I cant sleep either,3 nights now.Day 5 of vicodin withdrawals after 2 years or 3 a day.Hang in there! your not alone