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Hey peeps, my story...
Good afternoon all,
My goodness, it feels so good to be home!
I have been reading some of the posts from all of you, and i want to sum it up by saying to all of you, that in the post that i said "I am pretty sure i am done with these pills" I said it wrong, I AM DONE WITH THESE PILLS...As of right now, still have NO cravings at all. I know alot of you said that i should still go to the meetings. I am going to look into that this week, just so i can be sure! I do NOT want to relapse, so therefore, i need to do this!
As for all the questions about what my doctor is going to do for me from here on out, and the surgery they talked to me about...
My doctor is going to see me once every 2 weeks, i have to have my liver looked at each visit, just to make sure it is ok. I will have an Endoscopy done my next visit, This is where they insert a viewing tube through my mouth and down into the beginning of my small intestines, and if it is looking well then that should be all that i have to have done. If for some reason it isn't healing like it should then the doctor will do a liver biopsy. They feel it is going to heal very well though. I am hoping it will, i do not want to have to have any type of surgery. The surgery they talked to me about and will have to do if my liver does not heal on its own is called "Stenting", This is where they insert a tiny mesh metal tube to support the bile duct or a blood vessel in my liver. In case that wouldn't work they also talked to me about having to have a liver transplant! They are certain though that i wont have to have these procedures done, unless for some reason the liver does not heal on its own.
I am so GRATEFUL AND THANKFUL to be here today! I am so much more aware of what these pills do to us now. I took so much for granted, and can't believe how i let those pills control me the way i did. I have a beautiful son and a wonderful husband, and a GREAT family, and most of all the best, kind, caring friends on here that i could ever ask for.
My life is so different now you guys, it truely is! I feel clean inside, i feel alive again. It is so amazing what this has done to me. I will live, and i will see my son grow up, and graduate school and get married, and someday i will still be here to see my grandchildren, (Oh boy, hope that takes awhile) I am only 35, LOL...
Anyway, You guys, please don't be afraid to tell people of your addiction. It is nothing to be ashamed of. People actually DO care! If any of you need anything, i mean anything at all, please ask me. I have been through alot and i am ready to kick your butts if you don't quit these pills, it is so NOT worth what they can do to you...
Hope you all have a great day.
I will be here off and on today, still feeling a bit woosy. But sooooo glad to be home again!
Love you all,
Hope
My goodness, it feels so good to be home!
I have been reading some of the posts from all of you, and i want to sum it up by saying to all of you, that in the post that i said "I am pretty sure i am done with these pills" I said it wrong, I AM DONE WITH THESE PILLS...As of right now, still have NO cravings at all. I know alot of you said that i should still go to the meetings. I am going to look into that this week, just so i can be sure! I do NOT want to relapse, so therefore, i need to do this!
As for all the questions about what my doctor is going to do for me from here on out, and the surgery they talked to me about...
My doctor is going to see me once every 2 weeks, i have to have my liver looked at each visit, just to make sure it is ok. I will have an Endoscopy done my next visit, This is where they insert a viewing tube through my mouth and down into the beginning of my small intestines, and if it is looking well then that should be all that i have to have done. If for some reason it isn't healing like it should then the doctor will do a liver biopsy. They feel it is going to heal very well though. I am hoping it will, i do not want to have to have any type of surgery. The surgery they talked to me about and will have to do if my liver does not heal on its own is called "Stenting", This is where they insert a tiny mesh metal tube to support the bile duct or a blood vessel in my liver. In case that wouldn't work they also talked to me about having to have a liver transplant! They are certain though that i wont have to have these procedures done, unless for some reason the liver does not heal on its own.
I am so GRATEFUL AND THANKFUL to be here today! I am so much more aware of what these pills do to us now. I took so much for granted, and can't believe how i let those pills control me the way i did. I have a beautiful son and a wonderful husband, and a GREAT family, and most of all the best, kind, caring friends on here that i could ever ask for.
My life is so different now you guys, it truely is! I feel clean inside, i feel alive again. It is so amazing what this has done to me. I will live, and i will see my son grow up, and graduate school and get married, and someday i will still be here to see my grandchildren, (Oh boy, hope that takes awhile) I am only 35, LOL...
Anyway, You guys, please don't be afraid to tell people of your addiction. It is nothing to be ashamed of. People actually DO care! If any of you need anything, i mean anything at all, please ask me. I have been through alot and i am ready to kick your butts if you don't quit these pills, it is so NOT worth what they can do to you...
Hope you all have a great day.
I will be here off and on today, still feeling a bit woosy. But sooooo glad to be home again!
Love you all,
Hope
of course we will let you in!! we were all as addicted as you, some to several drugs at a time. i was on three different addictive meds. clean for about 2 1/2 months now. you can make it and stick to it. keep coming in here,y you will find us a very supportive family.
Lucy
Lucy
WOW........I think i have found the place I need to be here on the web....This site is awesome and I am so so so amazed at the stories..my god stupid me thought i was the only one with a addiction..now that I can say that word...reading Hopes forum was like a mirror image of mine..I am still in AWWWWWWWWW here. I sure hope I am doing this right and you sweet people will let me in your forum..gosh have so much to say but will wait..But I can say with my head held high its been 12 days now cold turkey but I know I am gonna survive!
you truly are an inspiration to me. so glad to hear you are home, and doing well. Prayer does work, as i have known for a long time. get your res, hun, and i'll talk to you later.
hugs, Lucy
hugs, Lucy
Hi sweetie...
I am hanging in there. I am just glad to be home!
Have a long way to go yet, but am very determined! I will NOT let myself get that way again!!! I have a beautiful son that i have to worry about now, and watch grow up. This is what is going to make me stay clean. That and i DON'T want to have surgery. That is a very very scary thing to have to go through. Really did open my eyes, and i hope everyone else on here will learn from this as well. Those pills are NOTHING to mess with. Took this happening to me, to finally realize this. I would much rather go through terrible withdrawls and be sick, than ruin my liver or other organs. Cause the cravings and w/d's will go away, but damaging your body is for life! So if i ever feel that urge again to take the pills, i will NOT do it. I will suffer and just deal with it. It does go away eventually, you just gotta be smarter , and tougher than the pills. Can't let them take over your life. So NOT worth it!
How was your day? You doing alright?
Hope
I am hanging in there. I am just glad to be home!
Have a long way to go yet, but am very determined! I will NOT let myself get that way again!!! I have a beautiful son that i have to worry about now, and watch grow up. This is what is going to make me stay clean. That and i DON'T want to have surgery. That is a very very scary thing to have to go through. Really did open my eyes, and i hope everyone else on here will learn from this as well. Those pills are NOTHING to mess with. Took this happening to me, to finally realize this. I would much rather go through terrible withdrawls and be sick, than ruin my liver or other organs. Cause the cravings and w/d's will go away, but damaging your body is for life! So if i ever feel that urge again to take the pills, i will NOT do it. I will suffer and just deal with it. It does go away eventually, you just gotta be smarter , and tougher than the pills. Can't let them take over your life. So NOT worth it!
How was your day? You doing alright?
Hope
Hi hon! I worked all day. but it sounds so good to hear you on the mend. Now that you've hit your rock bottom, i know you will come back 10 fold.
I was taking NORMALLY like up to 10 a day...I was taking percocet, 5/325.......If i didn't have them i would take Vicodin, 10/500.....
About a week or 2 ago, i found that by taking just one at a time was just not doing it for me anymore, so i started taking 2 at a time...Did this for about a week.
I ran out of them, and got some oxycodone (percocet) but they were 20 mg. They were my dads that i took from him. He has cancer and needs them and they are pretty strong. I was desperate so i took some. (Bad, I know) They were just straight 20 mg...Nothing like i never took before. Actually i never even knew they made percocets like that, the ones i only ever knew about were 5/325 or
10/325 kind like that, his are straight 20 mg....
So anyway, that is what i was taking! Usually on a reagular basis up to 10 a day of the vicodin or usually 6 or 7 a day of the percocets.
About a week or 2 ago, i found that by taking just one at a time was just not doing it for me anymore, so i started taking 2 at a time...Did this for about a week.
I ran out of them, and got some oxycodone (percocet) but they were 20 mg. They were my dads that i took from him. He has cancer and needs them and they are pretty strong. I was desperate so i took some. (Bad, I know) They were just straight 20 mg...Nothing like i never took before. Actually i never even knew they made percocets like that, the ones i only ever knew about were 5/325 or
10/325 kind like that, his are straight 20 mg....
So anyway, that is what i was taking! Usually on a reagular basis up to 10 a day of the vicodin or usually 6 or 7 a day of the percocets.
Hope do you mind if I ask you how many you used to take per day and how many MG of Tylenol were they?
Hi Michele,
I was feeling pretty sick, one night i was sitting here and started sweating feeling naseua and was having alot of trouble going to the bathroom. I knew something wasn't right, i could just feel it. I was having alot of pain in my lower stomache. My husband took me to the ER and this is where they found out that it was my liver. They did an Utrasound and seen it was bad. I am going to be ok now, (I hope) still have alot of testing i have to go through, but they feel the liver will cure itself over time. I am NOT aloud to take NO more pills, if i do then could have to have surgery.
As for you, the Ultram is NOT that strong of a drug, but you still need to ce bareful. It is better than the vicodin, much better! But for some it can be addicting. I used to be on the ultram and it did nothing for me. But for others it does! So please be careful. Like i said up above in my post, there are a list of symptoms i named that if you ever have any of those please go get checked out. Better safe than sorry!
Try to get off the pills completey, do what ever you can...Taper, or try cold turkey, whatever works best for you. They destroy our bodies more than you can imagine...
I wish you all the best...
Good Luck
Hope
I was feeling pretty sick, one night i was sitting here and started sweating feeling naseua and was having alot of trouble going to the bathroom. I knew something wasn't right, i could just feel it. I was having alot of pain in my lower stomache. My husband took me to the ER and this is where they found out that it was my liver. They did an Utrasound and seen it was bad. I am going to be ok now, (I hope) still have alot of testing i have to go through, but they feel the liver will cure itself over time. I am NOT aloud to take NO more pills, if i do then could have to have surgery.
As for you, the Ultram is NOT that strong of a drug, but you still need to ce bareful. It is better than the vicodin, much better! But for some it can be addicting. I used to be on the ultram and it did nothing for me. But for others it does! So please be careful. Like i said up above in my post, there are a list of symptoms i named that if you ever have any of those please go get checked out. Better safe than sorry!
Try to get off the pills completey, do what ever you can...Taper, or try cold turkey, whatever works best for you. They destroy our bodies more than you can imagine...
I wish you all the best...
Good Luck
Hope
I am new here and i have been reading your posts. If i may ask, what exactly happened to you?. I know it sure sounds like you have been thru alot. I am 27 and have alot of back pain and shoulder pain. I used to take vicodin 5/5oo but they have started me on ultram now. I know from my own experience how they all can be addictive. I would like to hear more on what happened to you . If u dont mind. Thank you n god bless! Michele in va.
I am so happy to hear you're ok and have had this cosmic experience that has revitalized you--maybe you can write about it and frame it so that if you ever feel the urge to use, you'll remember this feeling. It's like the rainbow coming out and everything is so clean and the future is bright.
Just want to say one more thing, if any of you have any signs at all that you might be concerned with concerning liver damage, PLEASE go get checked!
Here are some of the signs to look for:
· Pale stools
· Dark urine
· Jaundice
· Abdominal pain
· Fever; and
· Nausea and vomiting
I was having alot of abdominal pain and trouble going to the bathroom, nausea and vomiting and was a tad yellow looking in my eyes.
It did not all happen to me at once either, and to be honest i didn't see the yellow in my eyes. The Doctors are the ones who noticed that.
So please guys, any of these syptoms at all, and like i said you don't have to have all of them, even if you just have one of these symptoms it is a sign. It is better to be safe than sorry, remember that!
Ok, no more preaching from me...I promise! Just don't want to see anything happen to any of you. So please just be careful.
Love, Hope
Here are some of the signs to look for:
· Pale stools
· Dark urine
· Jaundice
· Abdominal pain
· Fever; and
· Nausea and vomiting
I was having alot of abdominal pain and trouble going to the bathroom, nausea and vomiting and was a tad yellow looking in my eyes.
It did not all happen to me at once either, and to be honest i didn't see the yellow in my eyes. The Doctors are the ones who noticed that.
So please guys, any of these syptoms at all, and like i said you don't have to have all of them, even if you just have one of these symptoms it is a sign. It is better to be safe than sorry, remember that!
Ok, no more preaching from me...I promise! Just don't want to see anything happen to any of you. So please just be careful.
Love, Hope
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