I hope this isn't to cheezy. LOL
i miss, the way i loved had to get that first fresh cup of coffee the second i woke, i also miss hating and cup of coffee over two hrs old, thats the worst. see i got into the habit of making the coffee, then crushin a couple up, snorting a couple, usually pass back out and when i wake in a couple hrs, hense missing that first fresh cup.
I least liked the feeling of being alone, lying to my family about different things and walking with black clouds over my shadow..........................................................
i now enjoy walking with the sun on my back and enjoy having back some things i lost, including myself!!!!
I miss being able to travel without making sure that I have plenty of medication be I go. It used to be good just to spontaneously take a trip. I want that freedom back. I like least simply becoming disinterested in others, and the anti-social attitude that follows. I miss being able to perform complex problems, in a timely manner. I hate having to keep notes to remind myself of things that I should remember easily. Like birthdays, anniversaries and such. Now, what was that I was saying?
I am like Jack. I want my freedon back. Even though I'm taking the sub I still have to know where it is at all times. I still feel tied down to something. I have only had these feelings since yesterday and I still have them today. I am worried about that. I feel good physically but mentally I'm still having the can't go anywhere without my pills. I take other medicines everyday but don't feel that way about them. This is really bothering me. I want to be free. I want to be able to jump in a car and drive for 5 days and not have to worry if I have the sub or any pills with me.
why the hell did they move this post...doesn't make sense..i see some they leave that shouldn't be there while others get moved right away..what a trip..You will have your freedom back Mike..have you tried going to meetings etc..counseling
You'll get your freedom back too Hop. As it is, at least you don't have to carry fifty pills to make a five day run. That's progress, man!
I AM VERY NEW..JUST FOUND THIS SITE A COUPLE OF HOURS AGO,, NOT VERY GOOD WITH THE COMPUTER EITHER..BUT I WOULD LIKE TO GET OF PAIN MEDS.BUT EVERY MORNING WHEN I WAKE, IFEEL HORRIBLE,,ESPECIALLY A SINCE OF DOOM, UNTIL I TAKE 2 OR 3 LORTABS...WHATS A GIRL TO DO? PLESE SOMEONE ANSWER..THANKS DEE
who's jack? ;)
Hi Mike!
Mike who?
I miss just being happy really happy, not happy cause I took a couple of pills, and I have well 2 things that I absolutely hate Laundry and bills! Hope everyone is well!
I miss being able to go somewhere or do anything w/o wondering if I have enough pills to get through. I want my old self back! I feel her coming back even as I taper. I would also like to remember stuff again! I used to have the best memory in the world....now? Not so much!
mike down in the south of the u.s and jack you did not say hello to Jack. Hijack......
are you serious????????
That was a play on words....!!! I thought you would get it...it's me Newgirl...Helloo????
I know who you are...go back to the top of the post...you guys were acting like you couldn't remember anything...geeeezzz...Jacks 3rd post down...
Jack even p.m.d me to introduce himself..(*thanks jack ;) anyhow...geeez o'pete!
Try to make a joke....
U didn't get my joke I am sure you know who I am as wev'e talked a bit. Hijack.. Get it??LOL That was my small attempt at humor today. Oh geeze I give up!!!!! LOL
who's on first? lol...i get it now...
NO I THINK WHOS ON SECOND!!
okay...but what's on third.
I miss being around people sober and not having to sneak away or wait till no ones looking to pull a little pill out of my pocket . I miss my natural ability to have ambition and be self motivated. I miss fishing with my little brother. I miss not worrying about when I was gonna run out of pills or seeing my phone bill going over limit with text messages trying to find pills. Sorry to write so much i coulda just said i missed real life.
I loved my relationship with my Father and Brother..............I hate this isolation