Tim

[lady_m]

I'm lost.  I read your story that you wrote.  I know it's been a hard day, but I'm confused.  Were you telling me that I shouldn't be upset?  Or that I'm losing my mind and I shouldn't?  I don't know....?

[lady_m]

Feeling better, today, thank you.  Went to the doctor yesterday about my stomach pains/weight loss.  He talked to me and kinda felt around figuring out what is going on.  He mentioned a few things it could be and I was just kind of nodding until he mentioned “… if it is something, I think it is probably benign”.  SOMETHING??? The only thing he could be talking about is a tumor.  And PROBABLY benign?  Ugh.  So I did a lot of praying and decided I need to stay positive.  Anyone who knows me knows that isn’t easy!  So I did a lot of praying and decided whatever it is, it is in God’s hands.  I have an ultrasound on Tuesday morning and I am having bloodwork done today.  So hopefully by next week I’ll know what is going on.  Just keeping my fingers crossed until then.  I swear, it is when I finally try to take care of myself that this stuff happens!

Day 5, that is great!  You are over that hump as far as the physical withdrawals go.  Like you, that is something that is so hard for me to handle.  But you did it and I am so proud of you.  If you can make it those first few days you are definitely on your way.  

Today is day 11.  I can’t believe it.  Jen went a week and a half without a pill?  Who woulda ever thought?  Not me!  

I’m jealous you slept well last night… lol.  I tossed and turned all night.  The night before last is the only night I slept well since quitting.  I thought it would continue but last night proved me wrong.  Maybe because I had so much on my mind.  Oh yeah, and the fact that when I finally did fall asleep I woke up to my belly button ring almost being ripped out by the blanket!  Ouch!!!

The weather is beautiful.  It’s not as hot as it’s been the last few weeks so that is nice.  I might have to take a trip to the ocean this weekend and work on a tan.  I’m too pale for a California girl!  I lived in Hawaii for 4 years and I wasn’t even tan then.  Pretty sad!

[shelby74]

Sorry Tim you do not get any!  :)

[TimH2]

Good morning Sunshine!!!

How are you feeling today? I am on day 5 and doing ok. It will get better every day. I slept really well last night and my headache is gone. wahooooooooo  I am going out on the porch and read for a bit. Every time I am ready to leave I answer another post, lol. What is California like today weatherwise? You keep fighting the good fight and I will see you a little later today.
((((((((((((Cali))))))))))))

Love to ya,
Tim

[TimH2]

You are so cruel today.:) I was going to bring my butter cream frosting cup cakes made from real butter. I will still give you a bite, lol. I am really leaving this time and no fooling around!!

Love ya,
Tim

[shelby74]

I have to send you some of this fudge...better yet...I will bring it with me to the cape!  Girl you have to taste the fudge they make here...out of this world!

[TimH2]

You bring me fudge too!!!! :)

[lady_m]

Thank you so much.  And yes, lots of kitty stories.  Those always make me smile.  The two most precious things in this world are animals and children.  Wait - there's a third.  Fudge!!!

[shelby74]

Oh honey I just read your post.  I am sorry I was off the board for most of the day.  Please remember the only good that the reliable pills do is mask what we are truly feeling.  I had a very dear friend point that out to me again today.  I know its rough and the depression...well sucks!  It will get better...it will always be work but it gets so much better!  You are doing wonderfully...and I am so proud of you.  I will post more cat stories if it will make you feel better...I think I just heard a collective groan! lol  Anyway, just keep posting.  It will pass - I promise you that.

luv you,

xoxox

shel