marcatj

[shelby74]

Hey honey!

I am starting to feel normal again being back home here at the forum.  I am scared sh**less about the w/d's but I am getting pumped to stop or at least I am trying to.  Just remember no matter what I am here for you too.  I want you to talk to me girl and if you need help you ask me.  I don't care if I am throwing up into the toilet - I will still be typing with one hand! (nice visual huh? lol)  You have been there for me so much and I will be here for you!

luv you bff,

xoxox

me

[marcatj]

i'm not sleepy yet either... i'm gonna be up for awhile... :-P

[marcatj]

i'm not sleepy yet either... i'm gonna be up for awhile... :-P

[marcatj]

honey, well, we can talk about it later, but really, your w/d's may not be that bad this time... and again, after what Steph said, i think the clonodine might really help..

and did anyone ever find out what happened to Todd???  do we know where he went, or did he just disappear?

[shelby74]

You tell me when you are ready...no rush sweetie.  And I completely understand about not wanting to vent right now.  I am in the same frame of mind.  I just want to not think about anything but you guys of course.  We will help each other.  You know what is amazing is that no matter what we do to mess up our lives - you guys are here.  It is such a huge struggle and I cannot imagine going through this alone ever again - not ever!  It is bad enough losing Todd but I cannot lose any of you - it would just devastate me.  You guys know me so well - better then anyone in my life.  

Now you go honey and sleep if you need to.  I understand you being fried.  I am too nervous to sleep just yet.  I am getting sick to my stomach thinking about the physical stuff that is going to happen yet again.  I want to enjoy feeling good for a few hours more.  

I will be here and no more vacations anytime soon for me.  

love you sweetheart,

xoxox

me

[marcatj]

thank you honey.... i appreciate that SO much.  it was really a tough few days... friday (the epi) was a NIGHTMARE, and i was so scared, in so much pain.. it was awful.  probably one of the worst days of my life.  i will tell you all about it, but tonight i am too.. fried.

but i'm ready to lick this thing too. and let's help each other, k?  i do need (and want) to vent if that's ok.. can i tomorrow?  holding back way too many tears.. but tonight, i just want to not think about it.  it was all so.. BIG, if that makes sense.

i love you honey.. and i DO need you... thank you...

xoxox
me