UPDATE

[road2recovery]

okay, first off thanks shel and emily---i know it was late, and ya'll were there helping me ....i found the email..it was "My Story" can you beleive??? all of the ones it had to be that one..He called again aroun 5 30 this morning..i was terrified...And guess what he said it will be ok and i will help you..OMG..i cried for an hour on the phone with him...he does know i drank and i went to a meeting at  7 this morning...i know some of you don't go and that is ok..BUT i had too..i had 21/2 years...But i had a headache this morning from the beer and crying so i am glad i feel like **** because it reminds me of why i don't drink...So i picked up my chip, talked with some old friends and now i am back...i knew i had a great husband but now i really know...
but you know what is funny..he told me he knew...You know how we think no one knows...They do!!
now he doesn't know how many i was taking before my taper...Because i don't think he would believe me, he doesn't even take tylenol...thank you guys so much
Thanks tim for the email...and yes emily i am very religous., and i did read some things last night even though i was seeing double..i will have to make a joke about me drinking sorry, but i don't want to beat my self up any longer..
To be honest, i feel a big releif, more than i have ever felt...Like something is lifted off my shoulders and almost feel free...I had no idea how hiding this from me was making me feel...now i do beleive that he thinks it mostly started from my surgery...But when he gets in i am going to tell him everything...i have too...And i want him to help me., and i know honesty is the best way...
maybe this was meant to happen...Dang but not that way...But it is done, and i have to get over the fact that i drank..This headache will remind me all day...LOL
I love you guys
R2R
now it is full speed ahead for me, and when he comes home he will be there for me!!!:)

[green eyed lady]

Hi sweetie. I wanted to let you know that I believe everything happens for a reason...maybe this is the way it had to happen...
I can only imagine how hard last night was and even though you drank, you realized that this was not the way to handle things...remember sweetie, we ALL stumble and fall...but you got RIGHT back up again and I am sooo proud of you for that!

I know this wasn't the way you wanted your husband to find out..but don't you feel better knowing that there is no more lying and hiding?...and in the process you were Blessed to realize how much your husband loves you and he is going to stand by you, My God what a gift!

You my dear friend have helped me in SOOO many ways and I really need you to know how special you are too me and many others on this forum...we will always be here to give you a hand or a hug. Love ya lots...and I am so proud of you.  E

[lady_m]

I am so happy everything is working out!!!  I am so proud of you for getting up and going to that meeting today.  Sometimes the best things happen because of a difficult situation.  When I hit rock bottom my husband found out things I had been hiding for a long, long time.  I had a whole secret world I was keeping to myself.  When it all came crashing down he found out everything.  It wasn’t my plan, but I had no choice.  And you know what?  It is the best thing that ever happened.  Once everything was out on the table instead of leaving he stood by me.  It was hard, but I felt so relieved.  It is amazing how someone’s true colors show in the hardest of times.  Your husband showed what a strong, compassionate and loving person he is.  

I am glad you are okay.  Sometimes falling makes you get back up and stand stronger than ever.  We all love you!

[liscamdave]

Honey, what happened? Are you ok? What is going on? I am getting nervous. Please email me or post that you are ok. I am here if you need me....

xoxo, Lisa

[road2recovery]

thanks so much, i feel so much better,besides the headache but i deserve that and it just reminds me of why i quit before...he emailed me early and said don't worry about anything he said i almost lost you a few months ago and i am not going to let that happen again!!!  I swear i love that man..
Honesty is the best policy...i never thought i would ever tell him...But there is a reason this all happen...so i am moving on....:)
thanks so much
R2R

[TimH2]

I am so happy to read your post. It feels good to release your demons to someone you love. I told you in the e-mail that there was a reason for this. He is going to love you no matter what and will be there to support you. It was smart to go to a meeting this morning and have great support there. We all do things we regret, but we learn from them. You are a strong lady and your husband is a lucky man. Please do not beat yourself up, just forget about it and move on.

Hug to you,
Tim

[shelby74]

Oh sweetie that is wonderful news!!  I knew he was special - just by the way you have talked about him and honey you are special too.  Never forget that.  Meeting wonderful idea!  Do what you have to do!  You are getting back on the wagon today right?  Well one more thing we have to celebrate a year from now!

love you hun,

me