To Tzt

[lonote]

I'm still here hom. I went off the suboxone so the codine syrup could help out on my
asthma, no great highs, but I consider it a slip, cause I lnow my intentions. My son is
home right now on an emergency leve. His Dad my Ex, is terminaly ill wit cancer in
his esophagus. He's 6'2 and weighs 156, went thru chemo and radation and chemo, shrunk
a softball size monster in his throat, but I don't see him surviving surgery. Its heartbreaking.
So what to do when you don't to feel?  Well I haven't been on opiates, cause nothing has been
n around , and i'm realizing I can ravel and go to Virginia and see my son when I don't ****
away my money. Its tim to getback on suboxone for me. I hope you are doing well,
my dear, I thought noone would ever call out to me again. There are soooo many
new guests/friends here tat I've not yet become aquainted with yet. In lonely. Its so
good to hear from you. Tell me whats gong on with you, cause its not all about me, hon. I
want to hear good things, it wilpick up my spirit.   Cathy/lonote

[lonote]

Thankyou for the love. I feel it, and I appreciate it.  You know, I have to be the rock  for
my kids. So I have to go weep in a bathroom or closet. Tell me its okay to come out of the closet.(lol) No yesterday I watched a slide show we made with all the pictures we had, and played it during the viewing. I fell appart in frount of the kids. It comes and goes. I told Greg my new husband to leave me grieve. It has nothing to do with him, and I spent 23 years with Gordy, was not in love, but had love for him. I would have neverwished this on anyone. It took him in a matter of months. Anyways I'm still around. Thanks again fo your condolences. Love you! Thanks for being hre.  Cathy

[tztlady]

Hey there Ladies,
Cathy, Just want you to know Im thinking of you and your family during this hard time of grief and rememberance.  Keep your chin up, I know it hurts.  I dont really know what to say, just that I care.  A lot.
hugs to you, sweetie.

Deb,
Congrats on the job!  Glad to hear Sal is on the mend cuz that means you are smilin' a bit more and that you can laugh and live with the real "her".

Love you ladies lots!!
tzt

[debsally]

Sorry about your ex.  I will pray for your kids.  It has to be so hard to loose a parent.  I'm still around, in and out.  Got a new job that pays.  Sally is on the mend again and I have given her one last chance.  Gotta say she is so worth it when she is not f**ked up on the soma.  she is such a wonderful person when addiction doesnt own her.  

I hope you'll be okay.  Know that we are here and thinking of you.  

Hi, TZT.  Thinking of you too.

Always,

Debbie

[tztlady]

Oh, hun!  I am so sorry about your ex!!!  I think that you can at least know that you and he were on good terms and always put your kids first.  Your  son is hurting and when our kids hurt, we hurt doubly so...............Again, deepest condolenses, I will say a prayer for him and for all who love him, k?
I know as a mom, even when we are grieving we still try to be strong for our kids.  Don't forget to let yourself cry, whether its alone or whatever.

So sad.

big hugs
tzt

[lonote]

Thankyou so much for thinking of me.

[Marce4]

Sorry to butt in but I wanted you to know that I am so sorry for your loss and your son's loss as well.  
My prayers to you and your family Cathy!
Marcie

[lonote]

I guess I still am lonote. thats good. my pewter has undergone some changes.

[lonote]

Hi! well sad news. yesterday my ex lost his battle with his cancer. So
i'm trying to console my kids.  more later. Had to change my name. Its lonote

[tztlady]

Wow, that is so sad about your ex!  Im such good friends with my ex it would just devastate me to see him suffer, especially when there is a son to have to watch it too!  Im so sorry you are going through that.  Well I have been taking online classes and have been real busy with that but decided to get on the forum and didnt see your name anywhere!  I care about you and all our friends, just didnt feel like getting online after i started using again.  Its so hard cuz the pills are at work, a coworker hands them out like candy and i had a backache one day and...............well you know the rest.  Im off them now though, again.  Have you heard from anyone?  Shel? Tim?
My daughter moved out so Im home alone again and not minding it at all!  Its kinda nice to have things stay where i put them and to only have to pick up after myself.
Well, dear, Im off to work but just know i havent forgotten you.  Im glad the asthma is getting better, that was a real scare when you had to go to the hospital!

Hugs
tzt

[lonote]

I meant hun not hom. My grandkids reallly screwed up my pewter its skipping letters
so try and make what you can of m y
last note..  lonote