Day 1...YEAH!!!!

[IBKleen]

Good Morning All!

Today is Day 1. I took my last Suboxone yesterday morning. I am drug free (Just For Today). I am feeling so good today, I don’t even know how to describe it.

I owe this special day to all of you who have helped me get here.If I mention names, I know I will forget somebody and I don't want to do that). You are wonderful, kind, nurturing and honest people. Thank you all for holding my hand when I needed it, or kicking me in the butt when I needed it. That’s what it’s all about!

Something happened this morning while I was having my coffee. I walked over to the calendar in the kitchen and I put a red star on today’s date. When I saw the date, I almost fell over. Today is 9/8. My heart dropped. And goose bumps jumped up on me all over.

Eighteen years ago today I walked into a detox center and started my first day clean from heroin. To this day I have never touched that demon again. Now, all this time later, I am starting over. It is bittersweet.

I just thought it so odd that it is the exact same day!! Then, after I stopped crying, I remembered something my sponsor always said to me:

“There are no coincidences, it’s just GOD’s way of remaining anonymous”.

It is so true.

Hope you are all having a great day!!

Big Hugs, IBKleen

P.S. For those of you that DO know me, you know that I had to change my screen name because of privacy issues.

[road2recovery]

I admire you, don't sure what your screen name was before??  I got the gosse bumps when i read what you wrote..But does it count that i am am detoing and have them anyway?
Just kidding...i beleive in God and i beleive he does things like that just to see if we are paying attention..
God luck friend
r2r

[IBKleen]

Hi Hun!

Thank you for your support.

Hey, I battled and chased those darn little pain buggers around for nine years now. It sucks! Today, I feel freedom!
But, I have to watch myself. I am still an addict and always will be. As a good little addict, I sabbtoge things. When things are good, I use. When things are bad, Ise. And, when I hit a milestone, such as today, I tend to sabotage it. It is the nature of the beast.

So glad to see you around here. I need all the support I can get!

Big hugs, IBKleen

[feedup...]

Oh congradulations...I cannot describe the happiness I feel for you....
I have a long history of heroine in my family that I cannot even list all of them here...
Im not addicted to heroine but I do battle painkillers...I think you know who I am.  
I am new here but am very happy to have found this site....
Keep up the great work...and God bless you

[IBKleen]

You guys are just so sweet! THIS is why I come here, and why I will keep coming back!

Great big hugs,,,,,,,

[lonote]

Skip the movie!

[tzt2lady]

LOL!!!   You are still original, the meeting doesnt spell it like you do.   You have a great day to!!!!
tzt

[lonote]

Yes I B on later. What am I going to do with my money? Bail your azz outta jail. hehehe
What did you think I was going to do with it? Oh I'll find something, maybe go out with  hubby for dinner and a movie, but that means I'll have to put out!

[IBKleen]

Morning Sweetie!

I feel good.la la la la la la la
Just like you!
I really do feel good so far. But, remember the half life of the Sub, so it may kick in tomorrow or Monday, and then again, maybe not.

You must be exhausted! So where are we going to spend all that money? LOL
Will you be on tonight? I have to get to the bank. I only have about 20 minutes so I have to run.

Love ya and Big 'ol hugs at ya, IBKleen

[IBKleen]

Thank you so much! (BTW, you do know who I am). LOL  
I am sorry but I cannot say my real name in here. Maybe my "Big Hugs" ending will give you a clue.

Yes, are stories are similar (actually I think they are the same). I remember reading parts of yours and going to myself..WOW.

Thanks again and have a great day!

Big Hugs, ....

P.S. And I thought I made that name up? Shucks, somebody beat me to it..LOL

[lonote]

Hello my friend!!!! My butt is dragging today and I have to turn around and go back into work. Let me tell you the thirteen hr shift I pulled worked to my benefit. My boss popped in two left early, I stayed and did a double so they could go out and get drunk, Well, to make a long story short, I'll be winding up with some of their hours, and more hours is what I need. I have somewhat of a checkered past, and hate filling out apps. The criminal background check scares the hell outta me. BUT>>>> I would pass a drug test in the first time in forever. I know the subox is an opiate blocker but it is prescribed to me. Feels sooooo go not to have to drink a gallon of some shty or get someone with clean pee pee. Whoohooo! 9James Brown) I feel good! la la la la la la. Love cathy Damm this is all about me. How are you feeling honey going off the subox. Talk to me.

[tzt2lady]

Congrats IBKleen --- (there is an NA meeting by that name where I live).    You go!   We may have similar stories, I go clean from street drugs a couple of decades ago and then ended up on pain meds and abusing them.  

Your sponsor sounds so much like my former sponsor, who I still talk to a couple of times a week.

Hang tight and keep up the good work!
tzt